26/07/2023
THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS LIFE.
Few months back I was at lasuth's emergency ward and I couldn't agree more with the bible passage that says vanity upon vanity all is vanity.
You see someone breathing a few minutes ago, The next minute the person is gone, If I am not mistaken, About 5 persons past on within the space of 5 to 6 hours while we were there.
At the sight of some conditions one will throw up. We had to run away from there. Even the person that was sick got well by force.
Few days ago I was down and I went to a private hospital with my legs but after getting to the hospital I became a different person, As if the sickness was waiting for me to get to the hospital first.
I couldn't feel my body anymore, I couldn't stand or walk straight. My legs were shaking. I was confused like is this really malaria or there is something else wrong with me?
I had earlier done some tests. (4 Different types) it came out that I had only malaria, no typhoid sef.
This was confusing because of the way I was feeling. I was lying down helplessly. My phone rang severally but I couldn't pick my calls because my hands were not moving. The only thing I could do was just roll my eyes, looking everywhere as the nurses tried their best to help me.
They were talking but I couldn't hear nor understand them. I tried to speak the only thing I could say was, am I dying? No one responded to me but they were there, I just told myself I am gone, No need fighting, Just accept it.
So I lay down there quietly with my eyes wide open but unable to feel myself.
After sometime I felt life in me, Dont know how long it took before I felt life inside of me though. I could feel my hands then my leg, I breathed out. At that point my phone rang and a nurse asked me if I wanted to pick the call, that is if I was fit. I nodded yes, She gave me the phone I couldn't hold it, So it was placed on my ear, I wasn't really fit but at least I could now talk little by little.
The Caller was my mum, All this while she has been calling, Because I saw plenty miss calls from her. And immediately I said hello. She started praying. You will not die, She kept on with the prayers while I just listened, I was connecting to the prayers though I couldn't talk much.
My mum's prayer has really kept me going in life, She is the only person I can call a best friend. I don't hide things from her because she understands me too well.
Even if I have a headache, I call her first. No matter what I face in life I always ring her first. So she was with me throughout this sickness period not physically with me though because we are not in the same state, But she calls every minute. Mother's love.
During this period I knew anything could have happened, I would have died. Then I asked myself what is even in this life? Why do we have to come to life and still end up dying? 😪 😢. Why is there life in the first place since we will still die?
I know we can't question God but sometimes one can't help but think 🤔 all this things.
Please let us all try and take care of our health, Health they say is wealth.
When I was sick I didn't remember anything called money, nor business, nor position for those that always ask do you know who I am ? Your position or who you are doesn't matter on the sick bed.
Be humble, Show love, There is nothing in this life.
Bolanle Kezia Olagoke Page