30/12/2022
My heart is December s**t is cold even with the heat on
I ain’t playing forget blood this organ pumping Freon
Conventional thinking say that hurt people hurt people
Confessional time like we underneath a church steeple
I say pain attracts pain and I’m addicted to feeling the rain
Tears of angels falling for the dreams of mortals that were slain
Hope defeated, lost, and replaced with uncertainty and fear
Most people can relate since 2020 and even last year
But this been my home swear I grew up with this feeling
Yeah I know betrayal and anguish them are my siblings
These voices in my head been keeping me company
They ain't leaving they stay here at home with me
Got me fighting the mirror mad yelling at my own reflection
Thoughts don’t know if it’s me or the voices who direct them
3am getting in the car take a road trip with my demons
No destination desperately searching for meaning
Emotional baggage packed going anywhere not to be alone
If I call out your name do you promise to answer your phone
Would you talk down my panic bring the love you’ve shown
Tell me to come over no matter the time you’ll be at home
Pain attracted pain heart was frozen don’t wanna hurt no more
A faint thump as arteries thaw a heartbeat or knocking door
