02/08/2020
I miss you in the morning when the sun Fades away, the ache within my heart just won't go away. my heart fills with love for you when I think of how much you cared, as I relive all the happiness and all the joy we shared. I love you to the moon and back and then way far beyond, without you here to give me life my heart does not want to go on. my heart aches when i whisper low, i need you more than ever I wish it wasn't so. I've been so very sad when I think of you and cry, I miss you so much and still am wondering why? you're with me in every moment and every move I make, all the memories i have of you i never will foresake. I think of the things you used to say and I and all that you do, at some point of every single day my thoughts have turned to you. I know its not your wish for me that I would be forever sad, so I try to remind myself of all the happy times we had. I know I can't be with you now and you can't be with me, but safe inside my heart you'll stay and always be. a million times I needed you a million times I've cried, if Love Alone could have saved you you never would have died. in life I loved you dearly and death I love you still, in my heart you hold the place that no one else can fill. we were inseparable from the day we met. I don't know why this happened and it's not your time yet. from the moment we met Sparks flew, I knew there was something special or was it too good to be true? At crickets we used to stare at each other and you made me smile, from then on I knew our life will be worth Wild. we were finally doing it the adult way, was my love not enough why didn't want to stay? so why would you leave me when you promised you never would ever, I don't want to do this alone and forever. I can't even comprehend we were finally starting to be happy with life, you even told me you were going to finally make me your wife. I want you to know you are and we're the best thing in my life besides Gabby Lou, and now she'll never know and it will be hard to see her blue. I worship the ground you walked on Gabby you are all that is true, you're my partner in crime to steal back gaby lou. I was your Bonnie and you were my Clyde we would have taken on the world and you never would have died. everyone loved us and wish they had a relationship like ours, we were one of a kind something that you couldn't even see from Mars. I gave you my whole heart mind, body and soul, you and Gabby are all that what make me whole. You made me feel strong when I felt like I was weak, life will not be the same without you you silly freak. you were mine and I always will be your wifey, no one will ever change that cuz it's wifey for Lifey. I miss you baby so freaking much, when I lay down at night I'd cry to feel your touch. We were finally understanding life and how to be an adult at last, so happy so perfect and honest it would have been a blast. I can't believe you would do something so stupid and not think, after this we all need to see a shrink. why would you leave Gabby and I like this, i just want you back so I can have the last kiss. we were supposed to be happy in a life together not morning it, i feel like nothing without you and I'm not afraid to admit it. You picked a place I cannot go right now, but I miss you terribly and need you endlessly that I vow. you never said I'm leaving you never said goodbye, you were gone before I knew it and Only God Knows Why. I can't stand this feeling I don't want to believe you're gone, to be continued my love sometime later on
