11/10/2025
Some of this is personal, some of it applies to all, some of it lands somewhere in the middle but here goes.
1. I get contacted by compounding pharmacies daily. Moving forward, I have no plans to work with any of them. I’m getting my meds from my P*P again and that makes sense for me as a type 2 diabetic. I still recommend the provider I worked with (they were great and had fantastic support) but I want to be transparent.
2. Compliments mid weight loss are weird and confusing. Thanks for telling me I look so much better now. Was I a bridge troll before? My defense mechanism immediately kicks in and I have to mention how I know I’m still fat but working on it.
3. Consistency has been hard to come by lately. It’s easy to stay motivated when you’re losing but when you’re stuck in a plateau it’s like a never-ending form of mental torture.
4. When you’re losing weight, people watch you like a reality TV show just waiting for you to fail and gain the weight back. The fact that I’ve heard about people rage-following me is pretty gross. Girl, if I’m taking up that much space in your mind, you have a problem.
5. Some days, I’m much happier, others, I see myself in the mirror and I’m proud only to feel the need to mentally disparage myself because I haven’t come as far as I’m supposed to.
6. I hate the fact that I’m comfortable (at times) with how my body looks. I know I need to keep pushing but I also don’t hate it here. I also feel like I’m letting people down by not making more progress.
7. People constantly referring to medication as “the fat jab” really grosses me out. How is that okay when there are so many other uses. Politicizing weight loss is so weird.
8. I’ve very seriously thought about weight loss surgery over the past few months. Then I ask myself if I’d be doing it for my health or if I’d just be doing it to be thinner. The answer… to be thin and I don’t think that’s the right move.
It’s been a hot minute since I’d done one of these so I hope you enjoy, find it helpful, or can relate in some way.
