11/07/2024
Ok. I’m back.
Had a lovely session with my psychiatrist this morning and a wonderful, peaceful evening prayer last night, a guitar jam session and several friends called and texted me throughout the day. I’m decidedly feeling a little less isolated, a little less sad. I’m feeling a little more seen, a little more hopeful that maybe, we might make it through the next four years.
I can say with great assurance and disappointment that I’ll be doubling my effort to remain encircled in my communities and will guard my own vulnerability with more self-care energy. My community is made up of people who support and underscore the Jesus movement, loving, supportive q***r people, folks who put compassion above capitalism. For those who who think that description is a little esoteric, here’s where I stand.
Of the energy of my daily life and work…
1. Does it feed the hungry?
• I will use the resources and privilege I have not only give nutrition and hydration to those in need, but also give energy and presence to those who hunger for safe space to explore questions and seek compassionate knowledge.
2. Does it heal the sick?
• I will use the the resources and privilege I have not only to help heal physical and mental sickness, but also to help reassure people that there are still 67 million people in the U.S. will do the same.
3. Does it clothe and shelter the poor?
• I will use the resources and privilege that I have to lift up those in financial difficulty as my resources will allow without putting myself or my husband in peril.
4. Does it love comfort and champion the marginalized?
• I will believe and support those whose existence has been reduced to a political talking point. I will love and honor marginalized people and create safe space for them to be their most authentic selves. I will stand up for people vocally and overtly when I see anyone being mistreated or disrespected. I will find and underline opportunities for laughter and light-heartedness and lean hard into them and deny my energy and vulnerability to those who seek to destroy compassionate presence.
I will condemn unchecked capitalism in all its forms. I will support local, mom & pop businesses. I will give away food. I will continue to greet people with the ASL sign of “I love you” 🤟🏼 and will bid people to be well and wish them peace. I will call out people and systems that do damage the body of Christ as I’ve come to understand the body of Christ.
Most of all, I will be kind and gentle with myself. I will forgive myself and do the above things for myself as I do them for others.
I think this is how we change the world. I think this is how we make a difference. I know these things are how I will seek to leave the world better than I found it.
This is the assignment. This is the need. These are the ways which I have been gifted to serve and be served.
We will get through this. We must do it together.
Peace to all who read this in the days, weeks and months to come.