03/03/2023
One Person's Journey Into The Void....And Back.
"I feel like I’m behind the glass, knocking on a large, thick window. Sometimes impassioned, irate, wanting to shatter the pane and step through into what is ahead of me. More often, I just glance through and watch, pathetically defeated, with nothing to offer, barely even any anger or drive to stir up, let alone the vague threat of competence to offer the world.
The world around me develops, grows, evolves and moves forward as I am stuck, able to see everything hurtling past me while feeling no part of it. I am watching my own stagnation. Observing and sensing the time pass, the hunger to learn fades, the endless possibilities slip away, and opportunities vanish into the distance, along with my ability to reach for them. It’s a slow, cruel, seemingly self-induced purgatory."
I feel like I’m behind the glass, knocking on a large, thick window. Impassioned, irate, wanting to shatter the pane and step through.