23/03/2025
For the past few months, I haven’t felt like myself. I didn’t feel like getting dressed, I felt isolated, I started shrinking who I was, I didn’t even recognize who I was and started speaking negatively over myself and my situation. My identity, as I knew it, was nonexistent and I didn’t know what to do next. Still, I knew that there had to be more for me because I know the vision that God gave to me. So, I pressed into God even more continuing to stay in the Word, praying and fasting, and attending church, because I knew that this wasn’t the end for me and that there was and still is more that He wanted to get out of me.
One of the things that I identified about my situation was that everything that I had once tied my identity to had been stripped from me and I loss my confidence—the very thing that people had always praised me for. I learned that I was confident in the wrong things to begin with and was forced to relearn who I was, but this time learning what my identity was in Christ, which actually means learning who Christ is first. I thought I knew who God was but the lie detector determined: THAT WAS A LIE. When we learn who Christ is, only then is when we find out who we are. God has been revealing Himself to me in ways that I never imagined and through that, He’s been empowering me to become who He’s already known I am.
When I laid out my outfit yesterday, it felt like a new thing. I told myself that the self loathing was over. The self-defeating thoughts were done. The feeling of rejection will cease. I know what my situation is, but that doesn’t reflect who God said that I am. I used to get dressed just to look good. But today was different. Today, I wasn’t just putting on a cute outfit—I was putting on the full armor of God. My strength. My Godfidence.
God sealed my devotional time with Him, with a kiss. He gave the Word “The Confidence to Conquer” today and it came in like a wrecking ball 😅. If you need a reminder of who you are in Christ, go watch it on YouTube.
(ps thank you for calling us to go on this 40 day fast. It was everything I didn’t know I needed)