08/02/2024
The latest installment of "miracles of course"... www.dpatrickmiller.com/OfCourse.htm
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"I share God's will for happiness for me."
Workbook Lesson 102, A Course in Miracles
On the face of it, this lesson sounds kinda sweet — like, "aww, God wants me to be happy." But on closer examination the lesson presents an unnerving challenge, for it implies that we don’t have our own will, or willingness, to be happy. Thus we have to train ourselves to *share God’s will* for us to be happy... as if, left to our own devices, we might be inclined to actually oppose happiness.
Making one distinction may clarify this mystery. The Course is indeed here for our happiness. But it is NOT here to make us *feel better.*
Wanting to feel better may seem like the most natural thing in the world, and all of medicine and psychotherapy is devoted to that goal. It’s also not unusual for people to turn to religion or spirituality in a quest to feel better, although God is often seen as a kind of last resort.
For instance, in the Twelve Step mode of recovery, people are encouraged to turn to a “higher power” or “God of their understanding” after their own attempts to feel better have led them into addiction. Many folks enter recovery only after some kind of “bottoming out” experience in which all their attempts to feel better have left them feeling just awful.
So, both therapy and recovery are focused on helping us feel better and function more effectively in the world. But that’s not really the aim of the Course. What the Course does is challenge our whole notion of *who it is that needs to feel better.*
Obviously, somebody who wants to feel better is somebody who feels bad. The Course calls that somebody the “ego,” our individual identity that distinguishes us from everyone around us. That sense of a separated self is powerful, and we tend to be very proud and protective of it — which also makes us feel miserable pretty often. So if we devote our lives to making the lonely and defensive ego feel better, we’ll be undertaking a contradictory, never-ending and fruitless task. That’s because the ego is simply a part of our mind that’s *devoted* to feeling bad, fearful, and lonesome — all the while telling you that there’s nothing more important than making it feel better.
By contrast, the Course takes aim at our identification with the ego and suggests that our real Self is something quite different. For one thing, it’s not encased in a body, and it’s not subject to the laws of time and space. It's not separate from everyone and everything else around it. And it doesn’t ever need to feel better — because its perpetual state of feeling is joy. And here’s what the Course has to say about joy:
"Joy is eternal. You can be sure indeed that any seeming happiness that does not last is really fear." (ACIM, T-22.II.3:4-5)
Uh-oh. If this is true, it means that the happiness that comes from falling in love, or getting a great job, or having a wonderful dinner, or going to a mind-blowing spiritual conference... well, if all those kinds of happiness do not continue, unchanging, forever, then they are just mood swings of the ego. As such, all those forms of happiness amount to different kinds of fear.
Bummer! This is unwelcome news, because the kinds of happiness that do not last are all that most of us have experienced. And virtually everyone has gone through periods of depression in which every shred of ego-serving happiness has disappeared, seemingly forever. But every once in a while, and especially if you’ve had any kind of spiritual discipline, you may have gotten a whiff or a glimpse of that eternal joy… the kind of happiness that never goes away.
a series of mini-essays inspired by the Workbook Lessons and other principles of 'A Course in Miracles'