07/04/2024
For those who don't know the story... Bill Thetford, the typist of the original draft of A Course in Miracles, passed away on July 4, 1988. His often conflicted relationship with Helen Schucman, who dictated her notes for ACIM to him, was never resolved during their lifetime. Helen died in 1981 after a struggle with pancreatic cancer, having never really accepted ACIM's message of forgiveness either. As she told her friend Willis Harman shortly before her death, "I know the Course is true. I just don't believe it."
In the summer of 1988, Bill Thetford was staying at the Tiburon home of Judy Skutch and Bill Whitson while visiting northern California. The playfulness of his retired lifestyle was in evidence on the day before a July 4th party that Judy Skutch was planning. As she told me, she was startled to see Thetford dance a little jig in the living room, exclaiming, “I’m free, I'm finally free. I'm flexible!"
Worried that he might be having a manic episode, Skutch asked him what he meant. "He looked me in the eyes," Skutch recalled, "put his hands on my shoulders and said, 'I am not holding any grievances.' I said, 'Oh, come on,' and then I asked him about several problematic people from his past. He had a specific answer for everyone, that he'd written to so-and-so, and gone to meet someone else, and extended his love and forgiveness to everyone.
"Then I said, 'And what about Helen?' He laughed and said, ' How could I not forgive Helen? She was the opportunity for me to learn forgiveness.' Although Bill had a great sense of humor, I don't think he was trying to be funny. I thought he said this with real joy."
The next morning Skutch asked Thetford if he still felt so ebullient. "He said, ‘Sure, it's freedom day. It's my freedom day.' And I said, 'Well, I'm glad it's still working,' because I was a little suspicious of all this." When she asked him if he wanted to come along with her to the grocery store, Thetford said he would walk and catch up with her.
"I must have made a face," Skutch recalled. "I guess he could see I was worried about having to wait for him, because he said, 'Don't worry, dear, if I'm not there in time you go home without me.' Well, a chill went through me and I put my arms around him and said, 'I'll *never* go home without you.' He just patted me on the head and smiled, and off he went." Skutch then gathered her shopping list, purse, and keys, and went to her car. She had driven a short distance down the driveway when she saw Thetford collapsed there, dead from a heart attack.
The dramatic difference in how Helen Schucman and Bill Thetford were able to make use of the spiritual teaching they brought into the world emphasizes yet another of that teaching's paradoxes. Although it consistently urges a surrender of ego-driven perception and motivations upon its students — promising that the ego's voice will be replaced by the beneficent guidance of a mystical agency called the Holy Spirit — A Course in Miracles also stresses that surrender cannot be forced upon anyone.
"The power of decision is my own," the Course says in Workbook lesson #152... meaning that we all have the choice of whether we're going to believe what we know to be true...
preview of UNDERSTANDING A COURSE IN MIRACLES by D. Patrick Miller