Nichelle Quiocson

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Nichelle Quiocson

every person has a story worth sharing with the world. this is mine.

02/28/2023

this is a transitional period 📺💭
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the more i learn about myself and how my brain functions, the more confusing things become. i’m honing in on who i am as a person, but i’m also losing more and more of my sanity everyday.
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i feel like i’m in the final stages of defeating this demon that’s been living inside me my entire life. no matter what anyone says, i’m in this alone. it’s fu***ng exhausting, but i think it’s the only way i’ll make it to the other side.

01/21/2023

this is a war between me and the devil. i didn’t mean for anybody else to get caught in the crossfire 💭💜

01/11/2023

“you are currently on the maximum dose of your medication…” 💭
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last year, i made the decision to start taking antidepressants, and it’s been a rollercoaster to say the least. i was never opposed to it, but i used to see taking medication as a sign of weakness. it felt like i was giving up. my mind was too weak, i was too weak, to fix everything on my own.
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if i’m being honest, i probably am too weak to go through this by myself… and there’s nothing wrong with that. some people need help with learning or exercising. some people are born with physical disabilities. i just happen to be born with a mind that needs a little help feeling normal (whatever that means).
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i think i’ll always need to take medication for my mental health, and that’s okay. i’ll do anything at this point to keep myself alive. 💜

12/27/2022

where do we go from here? 🛣️
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2022 was hard. i spent a majority of this year stuck inside my head. my mental health was/is at a low point. i haven’t felt like this since i dropped out of college, and if i’m being completely honest, i feel like i haven’t learned a thing since then.
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old wounds resurfaced. the insecurities i thought i moved on from came back in a different light. i have absolutely no idea what i’m doing with my career or my personal life. i’ve never felt so lost and overwhelmed… but i’m still here, so that has to mean something, right?
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new opportunities and chances for things to turn around? new paths unfolding in directions i never thought to look before? my past and my future can feel like concrete blocks dragging me underwater, but it can also be the very thing that keeps me afloat. the challenge is getting my mind to understand the life my heart wants. 💭💜

09/10/2022

i started editing this video months ago, and it’s probably the best depiction of my life right now. the past few months have been an absolute rollercoaster for my mental health. i let the mean comments get to me. i stopped creating because i felt like i was no longer enjoying the thing i used to love so much.
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not gonna lie, i’m still somewhat in that headspace, but instead of falling back onto old habits and finding quick fixes for these negative thoughts, i’m taking my time and being present for this whole journey, or at least i’m trying to. i’m learning to be patient with myself, to forgive myself, and to love myself in ways i never have before.
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i don’t know when i’ll post again, and what the future holds in terms of being a creator, but i appreciate you for sticking around while i figure all of this out 💜

06/15/2022

as a creator and as a consumer, separating someone’s online persona from their offline one can be really difficult.
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social media used to be a place where we experienced raw humanity, consuming people’s unfiltered thought processes and personalities. there were no rules or pressures to be anything other than yourself.
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but now it’s transformed into an advertisement for your most curated self. we pick and choose what our online life looks like, we filter our thoughts for an aesthetic, and it can get to a point where it feels like a performance sometimes.
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so it gets kinda confusing with these edits. some of the videos i make do pertain to my personal life, but not all. yet online, it’ll come across as if i’m feeling all of these things currently.

06/09/2022

the pros and cons of creating for yourself and not an audience 🎙💭
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pros: i can make whatever the f**k i want to without the constant dread of trying to live up to what i’ve made previously. there’s no pressure to be a certain type of person, or to post a specific type of content. i can literally just create and be 100% me.
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cons: it’s really fu***ng lonely sometimes. by posting these videos online, i’m attaching my personality to the algorithm and analytics. so if i’m 100% me, and no one likes, comments, or shares, does that mean no one gives a s**t about me? if i wanna make this my full time job, that means i have to curate who i am to work with the platform.
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i’m tired of being a filtered version of myself, but i also wanna do this full time someday. i wanna not give a f**k and speak into a void, but i also want people to actually hear what i’m saying ya know? 💭💜

06/07/2022

my two moods for the rest of 2022 🤙🏽💭

06/03/2022

if the multiverse is real… 💭
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i love the idea of the multiverse so much, but it can also be toxic at times. i’m constantly hoping that the other versions of me have their s**t together because my life feels like a mess right now.
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but i can be so invested in these alternate realities to where i neglect the one right in front of me. my mind is full of “what ifs” and i no longer know what it feels like to live in the moment.
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so i’m trying to be kinder to myself, focus on this version of me, and not escape to these worlds that might not even exist.
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…idk if any of that even made sense these captions are usually just me word vomiting lmao

05/30/2022

do you recognize the person staring back at you? 💭
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i’ve been thinking about this a lot the past few weeks. i don’t know how this happened, but i’ve been so consumed by analytics to the point where i no longer enjoy the process of creating.
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paying attention to the numbers is necessary, especially if you wanna make this your full-time job. but obsessing over it to the point where you lose sight of why you started in the first place is not good.
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i like making these little short film things, and i have no fu***ng idea where i want to go with it, or if i even want to continue doing this six months or a year from now. but the whole reason why i started creating and posting things online is because it makes the s**t inside my head more manageable.
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so even if this might not be the most efficient way of becoming a full-time content creator, i’m gonna do it anyway. i find clarity through making stuff, and somehow along the way, it helps other people find clarity too.

05/26/2022

some of my favorite stills from the reel i posed the other day 🎥💭
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i’m in this weird rut. i’m stuck between wanting to make photoshop edits because that’s “what i’m known for”, and wanting to make videos because that’s always been my favorite form of storytelling.
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a lot of people will tell you to stick to a niche because it’s more marketable in the long term. it’s easier to make a name for yourself, it’s easier to grow your numbers, if you’re known for something specific.
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but if i’m being honest… that mindset is really fu***ng exhausting. i’m already losing more and more followers every day, so i might as well make whatever the f**k i want to.

05/10/2022

social life📱💭 (⬇️ long caption ⬇️)
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nobody talks about the dangers of pursuing a career in this field. you psychoanalyze every instagram story, every social media post (i’m literally doing it as i’m writing this caption), to the point where your entire life starts to feel like a performance.
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the line between your internet personality and your actual one gets blurred, and you lose all sense of reality. you spend a majority of your time online fabricating an image of what your so-called “offline life” should look like. you compartmentalize your hobbies and emotions into likes, comments, and shares. if it’s not gonna get numbers, if no one’s gonna see it, is there even a point to putting it online?
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i’ve been posting photos and videos to the internet since 2011, and sometimes i wonder why i’m still doing it. something that started out as innocent fun is now detrimental to my health and wellbeing. i’ve associated the quality of my life to the online, quantitative analysis of it.
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but it’s not all bad. as lonely as the internet can make you feel sometimes, it also can do the exact opposite. i have my current friend group, career, and lifestyle because of the internet. the amount of people that have messaged me saying that my edits helped them through a dark time or that my streams make them feel less alone… that’s the reason why i continue to do what i do.
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i owe every single thing in my life right now to the internet, and that’s probably the reason why i also feel imprisoned to it.

04/28/2022

split 🎮🔫 (swipe to see the original photo 👀)
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saw this on twitter and had to make a photoshop edit of it! did this on a different setup than what i’m used to, but i still think it turned out okay lol

03/25/2022

775 layers and 25 hours of editing later… this is definitely the biggest project i have ever done 🎨💜
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the reason why i decided to make this was because it has a predominantly asian cast (and the trailer looked so good LOL). growing up, i had such a hard time identifying as asian american. there were times where i felt either too asian or not asian enough (i’m currently editing a youtube video where i talk more about this, and hope to have it uploaded by the 8th?)
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the movie is out in select theaters today! y’all should watch it (i know i’m gonna try to this weekend). the goal is to get someone involved with the movie to see this. but honestly, i’m just happy i can finally get some rest 😩😭

03/16/2022

we’re a long way from home 🌌✨

02/01/2022

forever crying tbh 😭

01/27/2022

slowly falling apart 🧩

01/26/2022

where my camera nerds at 📸 (i don’t even know what camera this is i just thought it looked cool lmao)

12/12/2021

self-destruct 🔥

12/08/2021

are you happy? 💭

12/06/2021

thoughts are heavy (mom’s spaghetti) 💭

12/04/2021

creative juices are flowing 🎨💜
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new video is up! would really appreciate it if y’all watched it and left a comment 😁 excited to finally start making photoshop-related videos (not tutorials lmao). hopefully these types of videos will inspire people to pick up photoshop and start creating!

11/28/2021

me all day every day 🎨🖥
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so this was actually going to be in the youtube video i’m editing right now, but i wasn’t streaming with a we**am so i decided to make another one 😅

10/31/2021

happy halloween from the creator crew 🎃🎨 (📸: )

10/28/2021

disruptive thoughts ⛈
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made this on stream last night! last night was probably my favorite stream so far. had so much fun chatting with everyone and so glad my we**am worked! some people said they’d want this as a poster, so should i finally start making prints? 🤔

10/21/2021

do y’all use discord? i’m thinking of starting a photoshop one at some point lol 👾🎮

10/13/2021

what’s your favorite album of 2021? i’m looking to listen to some new music 👀🎶

10/11/2021

welcome to my world 👑🔥 (swipe to see the before 👀)
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edited this on stream last night! i’m actually surprised with how good the edit turned out since i only spent 3ish hours on it! def wanna make more edits like these in the future 👀

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•• uploaded a new youtube video (link in bio)! i’ve realized that quarantine is the perfect time for me to figure my sh*t out lol 😂 also gonna start uploading my editing process when it comes to my youtube thumbnails! i still have a long way to go when it comes to thumbnails, but i know it’ll still be beneficial for some 😊💜

•• i spent some time on this edit, trying to get the lighting for the bars right! it’s not perfect, but i’m really glad with the execution, especially since i painted in the lighting by hand. 🎨 •• one of the most important things with the visual arts (film, photography, drawing, etc.) is lighting. i feel like having good lighting really makes your art look more professional. spend some time studying how light hits certain objects, and your edits will definitely be 10x better! 💭💜 •• ⏱ Total Time: 1hr 16min •• 🛠 Programs Used: @adobe photoshop and lightroom •• 🎵 Song Used: “The Future Is Now” by MARLOE. on @artlist.io

•• so this edit was actually pretty simple to do! i used the clone stamp tool to recreate a background layer. sometimes, it’s difficult to get a clean background (as you can probably tell in the edit lol). typically, the less complex the background is, the easier it is for you to recreate it! 💜💜💜 •• ⏱ Total Time: 30min •• 🛠 Programs Used: @adobe photoshop and lightroom •• 🎵 Song Used: “What We Didn’t Do” by Particle House on @epidemicsound

•• 1️⃣ so a majority of my edits are inspired by @circlecirclemath, including this one! he really helped me define my style as a digital artist •• 2️⃣ i knew that i wanted to split her body from where her skin met her clothes, so i used the pen tool to separate her top and bottom half •• 3️⃣ i used the clone stamp tool to recreate the background behind her because if i didn’t, it would just be a blank white space •• 4️⃣ i used the pen tool to create the hollow part of her body and the inside of her clothes! then added a rainbow to run through her •• 🛠 Programs Used: @adobe photoshop and lightroom •• ⏱ Total Time: 43min •• 🎵 Song Used: “The New Beginnings” by Qeeo on @epidemicsound

so not tutorial this week, but i wanna start posting speed edits of some of the photoshop edits i do! i’ve really learned a lot from watching other people’s speed edits, so i hope that you guys can learn from mine as well! 😁💜

this week’s photoshop tutorial focuses on clipping masks - what they are and how to use them! •• 🤔 What Are Clipping Masks? any layer can be a clipping mask! a clipping mask is a way for you to attach or CLIP layers to each other so that way it only effects that specific layer and nothing else •• 🤷🏽‍♀️ Why Should I Use Clipping Masks? I mainly use clipping masks to attach adjustment layers to specific photos or objects. it allows me to apply the effect only to that specific layer and the effect won’t be applied to anything that’s underneath it, which would normally happen if a clipping mask wasn’t used! 🎨💻💜

hemophobia: the fear of blood 💉😷

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Stories Matter.

Hi there! My name is Nichelle Quiocson (Key-Oxen) and in 2015 I started KIOXON, a company based in Southern California that helps other people and businesses create a cohesive and consistent brand story across various mediums.

Everyone has a unique perspective - a specific message or impact that they want to leave on the world. Everything we do, see, say, and hear can and will affect the way our target audiences view us.

The problem is that we have a hard time seeing ourselves through the eyes of the consumer, and we have difficulties keeping our message consistent throughout the different avenues our audiences may find themselves in.

And consistency matters.