05/05/2024
I’ve changed so much over the last few years. At first I was fighting it, still trying to fit into spaces I knew I didn’t belong either in that season or at all- jobs, relationships, organizations etc.
I didn’t want to be seen as a villain, selfish, mean or just seen at all. I didn’t want to disturb or disrupt anyone so I just kept letting life happen to me.
Until one day it was like God plucked me in the back of my head so I listened a little, made small changes then went right back to the familiar things, spaces & people.
So then He left me to my own understanding (🥲) I tripped, almost got swallowed up by pain, grief, depression and fear so when I cried out He gently pulled up and reminded me of my purpose, reminded me that without material things I am still loved, reminded me that even when I don’t have all the answers I’m still valuable, reminded that even when I was he lost he never left me.
Those private conversations with God were restorative, some days I couldn’t even speak I was so broken BUT God kept his hands on me, he listened to my heart. He sent me comfort and support when I thought I had no one.
The things He’s doing for me privately is more than enough, a changed heart and mind? Priceless. A clear vision and restored faith for even when I just gotta step into the unknown? I’m thankful 🙏🏾
Don’t wait for God to do the big thing in your life before you thank Him, thank for what you view as little because those private lessons & blessings are worth more than anything you can show the world 🤍
