As someone whose primary form of trauma (and root cause of my narcissism) is medical trauma, I have experienced medical gaslighting from doctors since I was 12. It took until I was an adult — over a decade — for them to finally acknowledge what I was experiencing was abnormal, and for them to diagnose me. Experiencing debilitating health conditions that cause a lot of daily stress and turmoil, and being told repeatedly by the professionals that are supposed to be helping you that it’s ‘not real’ or ‘all in your head’ or that ‘everything is perfectly normal’ — when it’s not — causes EXTREME distrust in your surroundings and in your own body (because if ‘nothing is wrong,’ then clearly it’s all made up, right?). I don’t trust others, and I also don’t trust myself. I still am experiencing medical gaslighting with one symptom they’ve yet to learn the root cause of, and I’m so tired of the lack of answers while my overall quality of life deteriorates by the day. #medicaltrauma #gaslighting #bpd #npd #mentalhealth #anxiety #narcissism #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #narcissist
I am diagnosed with both BPD and NPD, and am considered a covert (or ‘vulnerable’) narcissist. Regardless of the subtype, I still had to meet the diagnostic criteria for both disorders in order to be diagnosed. Covert narcissism is not the same as BPD. What sets them apart is the underlying intent and the criteria for Narcissistic Personality Disorder. #npd #narcissism #narcissistic #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #mentalhealth #bpd #bpdawareness #covertnarcissist #bpdtok #bpdrecovery
I get asked a lot whether I’m only on here for attention or validation, or whether I’m proud of being a narcissist. Hopefully this clears up some misconceptions. I’m an advocate for recovery. You can get better, regardless of the disorder. Healing is messy, it isn’t linear, but taking accountability and continuing to move forward despite any missteps is how you carve your path to a healthier life. #bpd #npd #narcissism #narcissistic #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #mentalhealth #npdawareness #bpdawareness #borderlinepersonalitydisorder
Things, objects, places, and people are typically seen as ‘all good,’ until they’re knocked off the pedestal and suddenly seen as ‘all bad.’ This cycle can rinse and repeat many, many, many times, causing distress for both the person with Borderline Personality Disorder and their loved ones. #bpd #bpdawareness #bpdrecovery #mentalhealth #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #narcissist #narcissism
And before anyone says narcissists can’t be abused — yes, they can. #npd #toxicrelationships #narcissist #narcissism #narcissistic #relationshiptrauma #breakups #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #mentalhealth #bpd #bpdawareness #borderlinepersonalitydisorder
‼️A lot of borderlines, narcissists, and those with HPD struggle with either hypers*xuality or s*x-repulsion. Due to personality disorders being trauma-based, sometimes those with BPD or NPD are repelled by s*x because it triggers them or reminds them of past events. Other times, they may have a lot of it because it feels like ‘taking back their power’ in regards to their trauma and reliving it in a way where they now have control. Also, due to their impulsivity and self-destructive tendencies, some may do it as a form of SH or because they’re not irrationally thinking, and therefore may regret it later. Lastly, due to craving external validation, sometimes s*x is the thing that makes those with personality disorders feel like they are loved and worthy, and so they revert to that as a way to regulate their self-esteem. It quickly becomes a vicious cycle where it never feels like enough, and getting rejected can cause a lot of core wounds to be activated. There is no shame in these behaviors, but it’s good to be aware of them. #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpdawareness #bpdrecovery #mentalhealth #narcissist #npd #narcissism #narcissistic #lgbt #lgbtq🌈
‼️read: I used to be really embarrassed to talk about my spiritual practices on social media because a lot of my content is rooted in psychology, and therefore I figured talking about anything ‘woo-woo’ would just throw people off or make them think I was strange and that the mental health information I give is not credible. I love psychology, I love science. I also love spirituality, astrology, and pagan practices. I incorporate both into my daily life— and before anyone says that the spiritual stuff caused my mental health issues or made it worse, no. 🙄 I only became spiritual AFTER entering therapy, and it’s been a huge help in my healing journey. There’s duality in everything. I also tend not to talk about my gender identity because that’s just more ammo for the people to throw at me, but hey. Authenticity > false image. #spirituality #mentalhealth #selfimprovement #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #lgbt #lgbtq🌈 #shadowwork #astrology #narcissist #narcissism #npd #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #masc #nonbinary #alternative
never apologize for the love you gave. 🖤 there’s a trend going around of people saying “how many aura points did I lose when…” and they describe something they did during a relationship, like stayed with them even after they cheated, or begged for them back, or broke no contact multiple times. I understand the reasoning behind the trend, but I’m just here to remind you that your acts of love or kindness or empathy is not something that should be considered embarrassing or undignified or regrettable. if someone fumbled you, that’s on them. your love is valuable. you are valuable. remember your worth. #relationships #breakups #toxicrelationships #billieeilish #bpd #mentalhealth #bpdawareness #bpdrecovery #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #npd #narcissism #narcissist #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #lgbt #lgbtq🌈
‼️Repeat this mantra every day, or write it on a sticky note and place it on your nightstand: “I lovingly call all of my power and energy back to me now.” Good luck on your healing journey. You deserve happiness. 🫶🏻
#toxicrelationships #bpd #mentalhealth #bpdawareness #bpdrecovery #mentalhealthawareness #spirituality #npd #actuallynpd #narcissist #narcissism #narcissistic #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #breakups #spirituality #lgbt #lgbtq🌈 #healingjourney #selfimprovement
It’s common to be co-morbid with NPD and ASPD, or for those with NPD to have traits of ASPD. But NPD alone does not usually entail a lot of the behaviors that I see people talk about when they refer to the ‘narcissists’ in their lives. #npd #narcissism #narcissist #bpd #mentalhealth #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #aspd #antisocialpersonalitydisorder
currently being monitored so I don’t fall asleep lol. 🤕 but take that, agoraphobia 🌲 #agoraphobia #anxiety #agoraphobiarecovery #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #lgbt #lgbtq🌈 #narcissist #npd #bpdawareness #bpdrecovery
lack of empathy solidarity ✊🏻🏳️🌈 (also the clinical term for his diagnosis is ASPD) #narcissist #mentalhealth #bpd #bpdawareness #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #aspd #sociopath #relationships #lgbt #lgbtq🌈 #alternative #spirituality #npd #narcissism
‼️read: I DON’T CONDONE THIS OR AM SAYING THAT IT’S HEALTHY. It’s not. My BPD was in remission for months, but due to an accumulation of various things, I ended up relapsing a few days ago in a very bad way. I made a video about the split and what it entailed. People asked me about my general thought process in regards to it, so this was what I was thinking during that time — at least, what I remember, because splits typically cause memory lapses in me and are so irrational that it’s hard to make sense of them. My partner and I are okay now and he has my consent to post this. #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealth #bpdawareness #bpdrecovery #lgbt
nice existential crisis bud, but now back to our regularly scheduled programming of stressing over how others perceive me and whether I should or shouldn’t buy what’s in my Amazon cart (too niche?) #bpd #mentalhealth #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpdawareness #narcissism #bpdrecovery #narcissist #lgbt #lgbtq🌈 #spirituality #alternative
Splitting examples in BPD. #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealth #bpdawareness #bpdrecovery
womp womp i fear #lgbt #lgbtq🌈 #alternative
I play this song at least 3 times a day. Ethel Cain, the woman you are. #ethelcain #preachersdaughter #lgbt #alternative
Splitting is when someone with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) goes into an extreme mood swing from idealization to devaluation, usually involving impulsive behaviors and irrational thinking. It can be very detrimental to the person with BPD and the people around them.
#bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealth #bpdawareness #bpdrecovery #narcissist
Healing and the trajectory of me being a BPD and NPD mental health advocate. #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealth #bpdawareness #bpdrecovery #narcissist
Healing means being honest. And if I’m being honest: I haven’t been doing so great lately. In a vacuum, it’d be nice to be this well-rounded, stable, reliant narcissist who makes content about healing in a linear fashion. That isn’t realistic, and that isn’t me. I’m healing in my own way, in my own time. And as far as the relationship goes, we haven’t broken up. But I tried to, and I caused a lot of emotional damage. #bpd #npd #narcissist #narcissism #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #mentalhealth #lgbt #lgbtq🌈
