06/16/2024
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Crafty jack-of-all-trades (yet a master of none), and content creator w/ bpd providing peer-to-peer mental health support online. Find me on TikTok and Instagram - almost 200k collective followers!
05/16/2024
i got a new therapist a couple weeks ago!!! we’ve been discussing my general compulsion to avoid the human race, and my assumption (nay, conviction) that everything is doomed and everyone is a liar. i no longer live in a constant state of hypervigilance— but that may be due to my avoidance of most things 😬 funny thing about avoidance though, it becomes its own beast with a heartbeat all its own and suddenly, it feels like the only option. so i’m giving it the ol’ college try again at expanding my rapidly narrowing horizons… my ptsd babes know how quickly a safe space can become a gilded prison!!! so here’s to never resting on our laurels 🖤 THE MARATHON CONTINUES 💪🏻😆
04/05/2024
🎶 she makes the sound the sea makes, knee-deep in the North…
04/02/2024
jus serving up a HEY HI HELLO to my ig fam 🫶🖤 it’s been forever. i kinda stopped posting here bc everytime i do, i get mass unfollowed 😆 that’s what happens when people follow you for one thing then get served another… i don’t take it personally anymore 🖤 i’m multidimensional and not every person is going to appreciate every dimension. that being said, ive grown SO close w my clients and more dedicated followers and i wouldn’t trade this quality of life for ANY quantity of followers. thank you all for being here 🥰
02/22/2024
Instagram subscriptions are BAAAACKKKKK, guys!!! now that my tarot collective is on and popping on IG (to the tune of like 230 some people now members of my thickabod tarot IG broadcast channel!! check it out in my bio) — I wanted to open up subscriptions again and give you guys a chance to SUB IN… meaning even more (and more in-depth) readings delivered via DMs to you personally.
my IG subs will receive:
🔮”Week Ahead” tarot + oracle readings done at the top of each week — these are PERSONAL, not collective readings, and will be DMed privately to you
🔮LOVE READINGS — DM’ed once per month… again, personal not collective!
🔮A smaller collective with a private sub-only broadcast channel where I’ll be dumping daily 3-card spreads for you babes .. these spread readings will be collective 🖤
SUB TO THICKABOD TAROT to keep your favorite redheaded tarot reader in your back pocket ☺️😆
OH and ofc I will continue to be posting FREE collective readings at the same consistency as always. this is just an affordable option for my clients who pay for readings quite often.
12/30/2023
if you have ghosts, you have everything 🔮🫶
been thinking a lot about the phrase “i believe in love is real because i am full of it”… are we ever really without love if love lives within us?
12/29/2023
i got touched by a hazy shade of ‘god, help me change’
caught a rush on the floor from the life in my veins
spent the day on Santa Montica pier absorbing the sights and people and energy and feeling like PART of it for once, instead of an outsider. caught some yuckko tryna harrass a beautiful and talented street performer and played bodyguard PARTY BOI STYLE (any millennials remember the “PARTY BOIIIIII” dance move?? lol)
12/25/2023
some snippits from this month before christmas takes over the feed 🌲 figured i’d clear out some more followers before the year is thru lol.. i may be in cali now but i am and will always be, an Arizona trashbag 🫶🤘🏻
***oybunnies ***oybunny
12/20/2023
spent a week back in phoenix to lay some vinyl flooring in the camper (needed access to my Dad’s tools and his free labor 😅 grateful for having some semblance of a relationship with him even if it’s mostly compensatory in some form) and… rather than slapping me upside the face with lessons as the Universe typically has in the past, instead it simply and (somewhat)gently validated the lessons I had already learned, in ways that fuel me rather than shame me. Is this true growth? not a lack of lessons— as the lessons never end — but an ability to better handle them, hold them, wield them.
I’m learning that love can be held and felt at a distance, and sometimes it’s better that way. I’m learning that being heavily misunderstood is a significator of divinity. I’m learning that all roads lead home if you live in your heart.
(side note/ see the uncropped images on my Pl***oy 🐰 link in bio)
***oy ***oybunny
12/15/2023
“She-she-she-she only ever-ver-ver-ver-ver
Walks to-to count-count her steps,
Eighteen-teen strides and she stops to abide
By the law that she herself has set—
That eighteen steps is one complete set,
And before the next nine right and nine left,
She looks up up at the blue
And whispers to all of the above…
‘Don’t let me drown, don’t breathe alone,
No kicks no pangs no broken bones—
Never let me sink, always feel at home,
No sticks no shanks and no stones’.
Never leave it too late, just enjoy the taste
Of the great-great-great Grey World of Hearts.
As all dogs everywhere bark-bark-bark-bark,
It’s worth knowing;
Like all good fruit, the balance of life
is in the Ripe and Ruin.
massive shoutout to owner of Greywash Ink (Thunderbird + 7th St in Phx 🌵) for making this bizarre fever dream come to life 😂🫶 I told him I wanted big Storytale lettering — like the first letter of ‘Once’ in ‘Once Upon a Time’… guys he did SO good and was gentle af — hold your that’s-what-she-said comments pls 😂
12/06/2023
have i really helped anybody but myself
to believe in the power of song,
to believe in the power of girls?
though the point we’re making is gone
play it stripped down to my bone
i’ll shut up and carry on;
the scream becomes a yawn.
11/19/2023
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11/17/2023
when you smile, it’s like a song… I can hear it now 🎶
I’ve had the most amazing handful of readings lately and it’s been blowing my mind to observe the most powerful and impactful synchronicities at play between me and my clients. truly- the universe WILL send you your Collective… your community. I am being sent the earth angels of the world, all of the Queen of Cups out there! the wounded but STRONG nurturers and healers out there are being called to me to finally heal themselves. If you’ve felt the nagging urge to book a reading with me every time I pop up on your timeline or FYP… like there’s a reason babe! come to me and let’s heal that heart 🧡💛🖤
OH and I do local readings in PHX too- catch me while I’m still in town!
11/05/2023
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in an effort to be respectful of those who follow me but don’t wish to see tarot content, either due to personal belief or general life overwhelm, I will now ONLY be posting my IG Collective Readings to my IG broadcast channel, Thickabod Tarot (accessible in my bio)
for those who are unsure of what a ‘Collective’ or a Collective Reading’ is, read on—
A tarot ‘Collective’ is simply an amalgamation of folks whom Source (Spirit, The Universe, God, etc.) has recognized as 1)needing a message of higher healing and 2)being able to recover that message either emotionally or by discovery 💡
A ‘Collective Reading’ does NOT always apply to every person in the collective. In fact, rarely (if ever) is that the case. Source is always aware of who belongs to the Collective and will deliver messages of healing in alignment with Divine Timing, Universal Balance, and Manifestation. It is the responsibility of those in the Collective to use their discernment (not their desires) to determine which readings resonate with, and are true to them.
JOIN MY COLLECTIVE TODAY - Thickabod Tarot Broadcast Channel - to be alerted when the newest collective reading is available 🔮✨ TODAY’S reading is available now (via link) 🫶
For PRIVATE, personal readings with me - book via the link in my bio, or (NEW!) send an order request thru this IG post! You can also request an appointment time for your private read via DM 🌻🖤🫶✨
10/12/2023
WHEW 😮💨😆 it’s been an adventure already just figuring out this camper (and it’s figuring me out too lemme tell you IT KNOWS my fears and weaknesses lmao) and simply adjusting to the fact that I’m wholly in charge of my life and all of the decisions therein. No one else to consult, to be a sounding board, to blame, to commiserate with, to share it with. It’s beautiful and freeing but it’s also weirdly heartbreaking to step into your power alone. Tbh I didn’t envision my 30s as single-momming it in a camper van but it’s highkey amazing and lowkey bittersweet. I was always sheltered(or rather- captured, entangled) by my parents, then into a string of a handful of overlapping long-term relationships spanning from age 18 to age 31. That’s right, I haven’t been properly single (aside from one month separations and on/off phases with f**k boys that lasted a few days at a time) since I was legally A CHILD. Which kind of explains why now, standing alone, I feel like exactly that- a child.
I’ll be posting more these days gives as it just simply gives me a place to celebrate and a place to vent … vital pockets of safety that I cannot find elsewhere. I thank you all for that 🖤 and for joining me on my journey to RV life 🥹🫶
10/11/2023
a separate spammy thread for all the pics my son took of me this weekend 🥹☺️ truly never feel more beautiful than when my son photographs me! (and fyi he literally pouts and whines if I don’t let him have the camera - never would I make him take photos of me like plz 😆 he loves photography and he loves his mama idk 🤷♀️)
10/10/2023
🏕️🍂✨ SWIPE to see unedited candids (mostly, haha) ➡️ from my weekend in Flag- my very first time taking the whip out on the road 😎🥰 learned a lot… mostly figured out what needs to be fixed up heh but also that I was Ms. Frizzle in a past life. I was made to drive a bus, baby.
and can we give a massive fcking shoutout to my baby Bean aka camp daddy aka T-Tainz aka Flopsy (that’s a new one I’ve yet to test out with her but based upon the fact that she basically surfs EVERY floor due to her very incredibly severe POTS lol) - for LITERALLY holding the p**p pipe, next to the p**p drain, being splashed with p**p, while in full femme, fishnets and the cutest velvet dress ever. Women can do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING okay 😆😂☺️
09/24/2023
“when I feel lost, I am not at all.”
if I must always be the underdog… then let my story be one of character development, an arc supported by the boldest of brave gestures - and with a moment of redemption so pure the gods themselves would weep 🙂🙃 🎶 yeeeeah I’ve already suffered, I want you to know that I’m riding on hells hot flames 🔥 comin’ up from below ⬆️⬇️ 🎶
09/08/2023
“I’ll tell you what happens is- your heart breaks. And it breaks and breaks and breaks and then you realize, it’s going to continuously be breaking. And you start to find how to live with that process going on all the time. First of all, you don’t collect the stuff. You pass it through like Chinese food. When some horrible bit of data comes in, if you start to perseverate about it- ‘oh how horrible’ and all… if your mind grabs it, you BOUGHT the suffering, you got it now. But if you say, ‘ah there’s death. ah, there’s birth. ah, there’s confusion’… and then out of all of that, you do what you do to relieve the suffering. But you don’t collect the stuff inside yourself. Your mind keeps going, back into emptiness or into just pure awareness, so that the stuff just comes in.. it forms, you see it, you understand it, you feel it. There is a moment of the heart breaking. And then you go on.”
I skipped town to hit the Salton Sea in Cali and it was the most beautiful, chaotic, lawless land of puppy dog gangs and swop meets. “I WANT TO GO TO THERE”… and I think I will. Guys… I’ve been trying this new thing called DETACHMENT. It sounds terrible but it’s wonderful and I’m finding peace and flow here. and the truth is, I have NO idea where I *should* be or what I *should* be doing, and I’m leaning into that. I looked around and recognized all the gifts, all the earth angels that the universe has aligned in my life and I’m allowing myself to be carried for once. Instead of fighting, clawing, grasping, begging, lamenting… I am trust falling into the arms of the Universe. and at every moment, I am shocked and grateful at its ability to provide what is fair for me.
09/02/2023
a peek at the inner workings of the chaotic landscape of my mind 😅 this is a 3pg journal entry that is part essay outline and part channeled message … see where my handwriting gets real wonky at parts? it’s my brother’s handwriting 🖤 part of my spirit team. maaaaybe I’m sounding crunchy granola to some and that’s okay! take what you want and leave the rest haha.. zoom in and read that third page (much neater as the thoughts had slowed and I could organize my previous notes better) and you may decide that.. it doesn’t matter where the message comes or how it arrives - truth resonates!
to break it down for you… this is me exploring a new understanding of the cycle of projection, how it travels from person to person and thru generations, through all connections and systems not just family systems… how we are all creating our own reality based upon assumptions that were created by others against us and then fed to us - and the WHY behind it. we impose the negative assumptions that have been drilled into us onto others who conflict with it, because they’re challenging the fabric of our reality. If they submit and accept our projections/assumptions/reality, we are confirmed. If they reject it, we simply create a new negative assumption about them to compensate for the rift their disagreement created within our reality. Making a video on this soon- likely on Tik Tok where I get a 10 min limit!
✨just a heads up, this a FREEBIE… only my Patrons have access to my journal entries each month! If you enjoy this kind of raw madness, click the Patreon link in my bio 🖤🫶
08/30/2023
‼️ 7AM MST EVERY THURSDAY MORNING - SUBS ONLY‼️
📢 🖤✨ I’ve been going Live DAILY on tik tok (did you guys catch my latest recap- I posted a “highlights reel” of my live the other day featuring a story about myself that will make you feel INFINITELY better about your own unhinged behavior 😫😆)… and it always gathers a hungry crowd, but can be hard to get to all comments and questions from people with genuine worries and troubles. bc of that shiiid right there, I am BOOSTING my weekly subscriber lives - if you love kicking it with me on Live but want a smaller crowd and more intimate Facetime with me, subscribe thru IG!
I’ve been trying to lock down a workable, ongoing schedule for a weekly live so you guys know exactly when to expect me and can plan accordingly if you so desire! + Thursday mornings pre-school-dropoff are genuinely the most workable moments despite the absolute chaos that is morning-time (and my life in general) but those who’ve joined me on my tik tok lives are no stranger to my mess 😂🫶 love you guys 🖤
SO, subscribe thru IG (click the “Subscribe” link in my bio), click the link below to set a reminder, and meet me here at ‼️7AM MST EVERY THURSDAY‼️ for some early morning bright and squirrelly craziness… likely some GRWM tidbits, some crafting, and making breakfast for the man of the house (my 8 year old son). IG Subscribers also get PRIORITY DM RESPONSES- no more getting lost in my inbox, I have a “subscriber” filter for my inbox that I check daily!! 🖤✨
08/17/2023
NEW- Hair Charm Collection ✨ I’m so f’cking proud of these stg… if they don’t sell, I’m keeping all to myself proudly 😆
All Hair Charms are handmade with bespoke resin pendant base, attached securely to 1.5" alligator clip. Dangling charms are DETACHABLE! 🤘🏻🖤
now available on thickaSHOP, Etsy, IG and Fbook shop!
08/13/2023
it’s been the vibe lately 🖤✨
We can say either that I’ve evolved to a new level of acceptance and detachment, or we can say that I’ve just fully reached the point of zero f**ks given- either/or! I am proceeding at this point in my life with absolute, radical honesty with the hopes that I will draw in only the most authentic of people. and it’s working. not just that, but my awareness is evolving, the shadow parts now work for the light. I’m not scared to be in pain, to ask for help, to be outraged or heartbroken. I’m not scared to be mean or to be wrong or to be hopeless because now I’ve done it all, a hundred times over it seems, and come out the other side only wiser and kinder and better. And I struggle to find the shame in that the way that I used to so easily. Instead I find opportunities to source that kind of healing energy to others. So it’s kind of like… f**k it 🤷♀️ send me your lessons and we’ll all learn!
as for life updates if you’re interested..!! I’m truthfully at a standstill with my $8k goal for my camper RV 😓 I get a bit of a check monthly from both IG and TikTok and that will surely give me a bit of a boost, but at this point I am laying low to restock the charmbox! I’ve been creating hairclips/barrettes with dangling charms 🥹 and I can’t wait to share with you guys- I’m thinking I’ll have it all live TONIGHT so stay tuned to my IG stories for the drop 🤘🏻🖤 but aside from thaaaat…
I am full force leaning into my PATREON now as it is a source of recurring income for me! So I want to tell you a bit about what earn as rewards for joining as a Patron:
-uploaded REAL journal entries
-monthly charms + stickers mailed to you
-exclusive BPD blogposts
-access to my BPD “cheatsheets” (like how to get a diagnosis or how to go about getting workplace accommodations, etc)
🌶️I also have a SPICY option for those who are interested…!!!🌶️
08/07/2023
🖤✨ TY for reading, and a huge thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone who’s supported me so far.
I’m currently working on restocking my Charmbox charmsiesssss bc you guys sold out most of them 🥹🖤🤘🏻but for now if you want to help, you can…
✨order STICKABODS - on thickaSHOP, IG shop and Facebook shop
✨BPD Cheatsheets - from thickaSHOP
✨ Subscribe as a Patron - check out my Patreon to see all the crazy rewards!!!
✨Subscribe thru IG for (NEW!) weekly LIVES - watch me restock the Charmbox and have a casual Q&A with me
✨Book online coaching with me - check the ‘Services’ page on thickaSHOP
✨Donate - thru the donation link in my bio 🥹
THANK YOU ALL SO F•CKING MUCH!!! The goal is $8k and we are just over $3k now! I will keep you all posted the entire way 🖤✨
08/01/2023
✨ “I know debris, it covers everything… but still I am in love with this life” ✨
In the last several weeks I’ve exposed my s•x offender ex-husband and triggered my PTSD, lost an engagement (fiancé and I broke up), I become estranged from my parents again, had a catastrophic fight with my sister, and am now trying to figure out exactly where and how I am going to live in about 30 days, when I lose my home as well. I know, you’re begging for elaboration… and with maintaining as much personal privacy as an “online personality” can, here I go…
My ex-husband is a registered s•x offender and after finally freeing myself from every last remaining thread of trauma bond left, I exposed him publicly on TikTok to the tune of almost 3M views, and simultaneously collapsed in on myself like a dying star from the PTSD flashbacks.
Aside from that, my relationship has been strained for the last year, very typical LONG term relationship issues and not necessarily entirely BPD-related. I asked my fiancé to leave our home for some space, and eventually we split for real.
I had (yet another) treacherous fight with my parents which culminated in me “calling out” the final totem of our diseased family system - my sister, the silent upholder of said family system … who I love and respect, but resent and rage against. This fight also, consequently, ended in me losing my home- which I indeed rent from my parents…my landlords. Don’t bite the hand that feeds you, right? 🙄
SO that leads me to… well, begging for assistance. I think it’s time to *attempt* to leap towards a very long term dream of mine… a vintage Shasta camper. With friends and TRUE family scattered across the states, a nearly neurotic wanderlust, and a kiddo who’s bound for homeschooling year after next anyway…!! I think it’s time to live my best RV life 😜☺️
I CANNOT ask for money without exchange of goods/services so PLS - check out the following (link in bio!):
✨ PATREON membership - see last slide for $tiers$!
✨CHARMBOX creations
✨BPD cheatsheets
✨Tik Tok Series (re: ex-husband)
I’ll be posting ALL updates and progress, good or bad 😆🥲 pls don’t let me down, my sweet community 🖤 I need your help. Pls share.
07/16/2023
the last two weeks have been the most transformative of my entire life. to verbalize it almost seems too small or understated. and some things in my life I just like to keep private. but I will say this… I experienced a religious psychosis that changed my life bc it challenged me to dig deep and discern what is my HUMANness- my messy, intrusive, paranoid, pi**ed off humanness- and what is my spiritual connection to the universe. for the first time in my life, I am comfortable alone. I am MORE comfortable alone and it’s not born from a place of avoidance or fear… just peace, trust and the love of introspection, meditation and conversation with my higher self. I am still tied to and prone to humanness but, at this moment at least, I am trusting that I will both create and receive a life that I deserve and I’m just not worried about the details anymore. Idk guys 🤷♀️ is this what stability feels like…???
07/03/2023
The Nihilist’s Pocketwatch, and others from my CHARMBOX collection (available to purchase via IG now!)
I’ve been going through a transitional phase… one that sits atop about 3 other simultaneous transitional cycles that I’m currently growing through. Leading me to believe that my spirit team either finds me highly capable, or they hate me 😅 I’m going to go with the first. Bc I’m no stranger to transition despite HATING change (I’m a control freak okay?) I know that discomfort is growth and my suffering will fuel my most abundant timeline yet. I feel the changes even now!
Here’s what I’ve learned so far:
✨ my deepest issues stem from control, not abandonment
✨ my control of a situation does nothing to alleviate my suffering- in fact, it increases it
✨ having to demand change in others is a sign that they simply *won’t* change
✨ I can no longer be gaslit (by mysef or others) out of believing that I deserve the best
✨ being alone is actually the best
I hope you guys see how hard I’ve been working, even in my struggle, to bring you new and whimsical creations! I didn’t want to be a creator who simply sells merch… I want to create love and joy with my own two hands and mail it to you with a hug. That’s what I’m trying to do 🖤
06/16/2023
from a Lake Havasu trip where I met my online bestie for the very first time ☺️🖤✨
and I can’t begin to tell you how much I do NOT even deserve this goddess-reincarnate as a friend… if you only knew the amount of texts that went unanswered on my end, all the extra energy she has to use to gas me up enough to make me feel like I can do this- This Friendship Thing that has long eluded me 🤣 I have NEVER known how to make friends outside of work, let alone outside of my state and she’s done so much of the leg work. Oh and did I mention that we BOTH have BPD…? Heather- because you’ve never left me alone, and because you’re the kinda girl to bring extra virgin olive oil on a boating trip… I LOVE YOU
06/06/2023
✨🎉 GIVEAWAY TIME!!! I have SO many huge, exciting projects coming up and the first step is triangulating all of my amazing super-followers... thus, The thickaSQUAD Broadcast Channel was born! This channel is a one-way direct message **through Instagram** that allows me to connect with you guys through stories, voice memos, etc. consider it a modified, free option to my Instagram Subscription service 🥰
HERE'S HOW TO WIN: first, head over to Instagram and make sure you're following me! then click the link titled CHANNELS in my Instagram bio... find the public "thickaSQUAD" channel and join! I'll be rolling out sneak peaks and previews to upcoming thickabod projects and as a thickaSQUAD member, you'll be the first to know. I'll be randomly choosing a name from my thickaSQUAD in one week- next Tuesday 6/13 at 5PM MST. If you win, you'll be contacted via DM- you must be comfortable sharing your address or the address of a friend so I can send you your giveaway prizes!
As for the prizes... you guys, I'm obsessed with these 🥹 I wanted you to feel the love with handmade gifts... so I got with some of my most talented friends to make that happen for you.
CUSTOM "INNER CHILD" CANDLES:
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🖤✨ i don’t typically post collective readings or channeled messages to IG but felt called to do so here. this was a channeled message I received in bits and pieces (and yes, with two different channeled song lyrics included— can you pick them out?) after a walk down the river where I found an old, broken and crumbled cement bridge that had been pushed to either side of the riverbank, covered in moss and recycled back to the earth. too often are we married to the destruction of things, to our pain, to our endings.. when there is no end. the end has no end. our endings are simply birthing periods to new beginnings. and birth is hard work, it’s painful and it’s ugly but it’s beautiful and full of fresh, new life. . #healing #spirituality #channeledmessages #cptsd #cptsdrecovery #loveaddict #heartbreak
the earth waits for you to take notice of it . #motherearth #nature #rvlife #oregon
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my senior quote in 2010: “do i dare disturb the universe?” ✨
tarot is a tool accessible to EVERYONE, so if you’ve been wanting to learn but feel like it’s for the “special spiritual girlies”… pls ask yourself how they became so! tarot is a tool for healing, not a religion (though it is deeply spiritual by nature). it requires no prerequisite knowledge… the deck will be gentle with you as you learn and does not expect to be held ONLY by the hands of a master. every master was a student at one point, and every student needs their tools to learn. . #spiritual #tarot #tarotreader #tarotdeck #littlelibrary #oregon
who wants to come wade shin-deep in a stream with me? ☀️🌻 #nature #naturetherapy #grandronde
just in case you needed a dose of water therapy ✨ (also this is likely a stream or creek, i do not know the difference 😆) . #ptsd #ptsdrecovery #ptsdrelief
never graduating up in size to add another, and my nightmares will have nightmares every night . #frontbottoms #twinsizemattress
i am infuriating (in an endearing way, i hope…?) to those who know me. i once told a therapist that no one person alive has “all the pieces” to me. i like to disperse them, toss a piece to the north and scatter a few to the east. i like my thoughts to remain unexplainable, my actions bewildering, my body untraceable. i enjoy this fragmented existence, it makes for easier transformation. something i no longer fear. . “how do you catch a cloud and pin it down? how can you hold a moon beam in your hand?” . #ptsd #ptsdrecovery #cptsd #neurodivergent #hermit #rvlife
when they move on to greener pastures, lean into your own hills and valleys and find how fertile the soil has always been. . #healing #recovery #loveaddict
i used to think i was being punished, to walk the earth alone. its not. my presence is a gift, even if not to me. . (ft my new favorite song by Greta Van Fleet… those pipes omfg) . #dating #healer #avoidantattachment
🎶 some metal made up from glue, some kind of plastic i can wrap around you…
can’t fix stupid 😆 . #spiritual #tarot #tarotreader
(go girl, give em nothing!) listen I CARE but the unique position of being known and disliked by people on a grand scale, and then the resounding evidence of how little that has actually effected my day to day life in the absence of me making it the focus of my day to day life— is insurmountable. frankly unless you’re a marginalized class or an elected official, the opinions of others don’t effect your life… that’s a somewhat privileged position to have. so to re-route these passing judgements into your own psyche of your own accord?? mind boggling. i for one am no longer subscribing to others’ beliefs about me and i’ll deal just with my own for now. . #cptsd #cptsdrecovery #ptsd #bpdsupport #bpdrecovery
letting Chappell Roan cleanse my weary soul ✨ (and also the followers who hate seeing me jiggle) . #jigglejiggle
this was cut down from a 3-min rant i posted to TT so if you like hearing me on a soapbox, go check it out there ✨ . #parenting #traumahealing #bpdparents #traumarecovery #cptsd #cptsdrecovery
i didn’t say i hated it 😆 but yikes yall . #dating
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