Unsaid Feelings

08/09/2023

While I was making a dedicated study space for my child, I realized that being a good mom isn't just about having a lot of money. It's about pouring your heart and soul into every aspect of their life.

Every morning, I wake up early to ensure my child starts the day with a warm breakfast and a smile. I make sure he has a nutritious packed snack for school, prepared with love. It's not just about the food; it's about nourishing his growing body and showing him that he matters.

I spend countless hours researching and organizing his school requirements, from uniforms to supplies, to ensure he has everything he needs. And all of this, while juggling a full-time job. It's not easy, but I do it because I want the best for my child.

So, yes, it's not just about money. It's about the time, effort, and love we invest in our children's lives. It's about being there for them, no matter how busy life gets. That's what makes us great moms. 💖📚

21/08/2023

Helping others in their times of need is a noble act, but it's important to remember that reciprocity isn't guaranteed. True strength comes from cultivating your independence, so you're prepared to navigate life's challenges on your own. Be kind, but also empower yourself to stand strong.

23/07/2023

These past weeks have been incredibly challenging as consistent failures have cast a shadow of doubt over my life. I find myself grappling with the unsettling question of whether I have been living my life the wrong way. It's disheartening to face disappointment after disappointment, and it has left me feeling lost and defeated.

As I wallowed in self-doubt, a glimmer of hope unexpectedly found its way into my life. I received a heartfelt message from a close friend, and it instantly touched my heart. In her words, she expressed how I had made her happy through the years, and she wanted to reciprocate that happiness back to me.

Reading her message was like a ray of sunshine breaking through the dark clouds of my current struggles. It reminded me that life's worth is not solely measured by accomplishments and successes. It's about the impact we have on the lives of others, the joy we bring to their hearts, and the love we share.

Her kind words made me realize that I have positively influenced someone's life despite my perceived failures. It was a beautiful reminder that life's journey is not just about avoiding mistakes but also about the meaningful connections we forge with others.

It's easy to become fixated on what's going wrong and overlook the moments of happiness and love we create. My friend's message showed me that I am capable of making a positive difference, even when I may feel like I'm stumbling along my own path.

This revelation has given me a fresh perspective on my struggles. It has taught me to be more compassionate towards myself and to appreciate the good that I've done in the lives of others. While I may not have it all figured out, I now understand that life's purpose is not always straightforward, and failures are an inevitable part of the journey.

With newfound determination, I want to approach my challenges with resilience and a sense of grace. I'll strive to learn from my mistakes, grow stronger, and use my experiences to shape a more meaningful life moving forward.

As the day comes to an end, I am grateful for my friend's message, which lifted my spirits when I needed it the most. Life's uncertainties still lie ahead, but I am now equipped with the knowledge that I can positively impact the people around me. And in that realization, I find hope and strength to embrace whatever comes my way.

21/07/2023

Life is an ever-changing journey, and along the way, we often find ourselves holding onto things that burden us. We may desperately want to cling to them, fearing that letting go would bring about a sense of loss or emptiness. However, the truth is that sometimes, the only way to truly flourish and embrace the beauty of life is to relinquish these burdens, no matter how much we desire them.

Holding onto burdens can be likened to carrying a heavy backpack on a long hike; it becomes increasingly exhausting, hindering our ability to enjoy the journey fully.

Confronting and accepting that certain things are no longer meant for us allows us to heal wounds and foster resilience. Just as pruning dead branches from a tree enables it to grow healthier and stronger, letting go enables us to nurture our emotional core and move towards a brighter, more fulfilling future.

Letting go does not signify weakness or indifference; rather, it is an act of self-empowerment. Recognizing that some things are beyond our control is liberating.

Sometimes, you have to let go of the things that burden you, no matter how much you want them in your life.

19/07/2023

18/07/2023

Have you ever discovered your love language? For me, it's acts of service, and it holds a special place in my heart.

Acts of service are all about going the extra mile for our loved ones, showing them we care by taking action to make their lives a little bit easier or more enjoyable. It's incredible how something as simple as cooking a meal or lending a helping hand can express love in such a profound way. 💕

You see, when someone I care for allows me to help them, it truly warms my heart. It's not about seeking recognition or praise; it's about being able to contribute to their happiness and well-being. I find joy in knowing that I can make a positive difference in their lives through acts of service. ✨

However, I must admit that it can be a little disappointing when those I care for refuse my help or seek assistance from someone else. It's not that I expect them to rely solely on me, but when I genuinely want to be there for them, it can be disheartening. I want them to know that I'm always willing to lend a hand, and their trust in me means the world. ❤️

Remember, love languages are unique to each individual. While acts of service might be my primary love language, it's important to understand that everyone has their own way of feeling loved and valued. Some may prefer words of affirmation, quality time, receiving gifts, or physical touch.

So, I challenge all of us to discover and honor the love languages of those around us, especially our significant others, friends, and family. By understanding and speaking their love language, we can deepen our connections and strengthen our relationships. 🌈✨

Let's open up a discussion in the comments below: What acts of service make you feel truly loved? Have you ever experienced disappointment when your willingness to help was turned away? Let's share our stories and inspire each other with our love language experiences! ❤️

12/07/2023

"In the quiet corners of my soul, a bittersweet symphony lingers, as whispers of a fading love cascade like autumn leaves. The once vibrant colors of our story now blend into muted hues, and the warmth we shared dissipates like morning mist. Our hearts, once entwined in a dance of passion, now stumble upon disjointed steps, lost in the maze of uncertainty. The familiar touch feels distant, like a melody carried away by a passing breeze. Yet, amidst the melancholy, a flicker of hope remains, seeking solace in the fragments of what once was, and longing for the dawn of a new melody to be composed.."

falling out of love.

08/06/2023

Sometimes, the weight of the world becomes too heavy to bear. The overwhelming thoughts and emotions consume me, and I yearn for solace, for a temporary escape from the chaos. In those moments, I retreat into the shadows, hoping that someone will notice my absence and recognize the significance it holds.

I don't want to be forgotten. I don't want my presence to fade away into insignificance. By disappearing, I want to ignite a spark of curiosity in those who know me, a spark that compels them to reach out, to seek me out. I want them to realize that behind the veil of my absence, there is a longing for connection, for understanding, for someone to truly see me.

It's not an easy task, to be the one who disappears and expects others to seek. It requires vulnerability, trust, and a deep belief that there are people out there who care enough to embark on the search. I know it's a lot to ask, but it's a desperate plea for genuine human connection.

31/05/2023

Hey there, it's not always easy for me to share personal experiences, but I feel compelled to open up about something that has been weighing on my heart. Today, I want to talk about the feelings of being uninvited, not the favorite, and not belonging.

We all have those moments in life when it seems like we're on the outskirts, watching from the sidelines while others take center stage. It can be a painful experience, leaving us with a sense of isolation and self-doubt. I know because I've been there, too.

There have been instances where I've felt overlooked, as if I didn't quite fit into the mold that others deemed worthy. It's disheartening to see friends and acquaintances gather together, seemingly effortlessly, while I stood on the periphery, feeling invisible. I questioned my worth and wondered what I was doing wrong.

But as time went on, I realized that my worth isn't defined by external validation or popularity. It doesn't hinge on being everyone's favorite or receiving constant invitations. It lies within me, and it's up to me to recognize and nurture it.

I learned to appreciate my uniqueness and embrace my individuality. I understood that not belonging to every group or being the center of attention doesn't make me any less valuable. I began to focus on building genuine connections with people who appreciated me for who I am, rather than striving for superficial acceptance.

Through this journey, I discovered the power of self-acceptance. I started investing time in my passions and interests, cultivating my strengths, and nourishing my soul. I surrounded myself with those who uplifted and supported me, forming a tribe that celebrated my quirks and differences.

I realized that being uninvited or feeling like an outsider doesn't mean I don't belong. It simply means that I belong in a different place or with different people. I belong to a community that values authenticity, kindness, and compassion.

So, if you're going through a similar experience, I want you to know that you are not alone. You have inherent worth and deserve to be surrounded by those who appreciate and cherish you for who you truly are. Embrace your uniqueness, seek out like-minded individuals, and build a support network that nurtures your growth.

Remember, you are worthy of love, acceptance, and belonging. Don't let the opinions or actions of others define your self-worth. The path to self-acceptance may be challenging, but the reward of finding your true tribe and embracing your authenticity is immeasurable.

Hold your head high, my friend, and know that you are deserving of love and belonging, just as you are. Your journey to self-acceptance starts with you, and I believe in your ability to navigate through the challenges and come out stronger on the other side.

With love and encouragement,
~R

27/05/2023

You wake up every day with a determination to conquer the world. Your energy is contagious, and you radiate positivity wherever you go. You've always been the one to lend a helping hand, offering unwavering support to those around you. You've cheered on your friends during their triumphs and provided a shoulder to lean on in their darkest moments. You've celebrated their successes with genuine joy, genuinely believing in their potential.

But as time goes by, you start to notice a discrepancy. The support you give so freely doesn't seem to be reciprocated. While you continue to pour your heart and soul into lifting others up, you can't help but feel a pang of disappointment when the same level of support isn't extended your way.

At first, you brush it off, reminding yourself that everyone has different capacities for giving. You understand that people have their own battles to fight, and their limited ability to provide support doesn't diminish their value as friends or loved ones. But deep down, there's a part of you that yearns for that same unwavering support you've always given to others.

You've always been the rock, the foundation upon which others have leaned. You listen with an open heart, offering advice and encouragement without hesitation. Yet when you find yourself needing a listening ear or a comforting word, you feel as though the weight of the world rests solely on your shoulders.

But here's the thing: it's okay. It's okay not to receive the same level of support that you give. It's okay to have moments of vulnerability, even if others can't reciprocate in the same way. Your strength isn't measured by how much support you receive, but rather by how resilient you are in the face of adversity.

Remember that the worth of your support isn't contingent on its return. Your kindness and compassion have touched countless lives, and that in itself is a remarkable feat. The joy you find in lifting others up shouldn't be diminished by the absence of the same support from them.

Instead of dwelling on the disparity, channel your energy into self-care and self-love. Celebrate your own victories, no matter how small they may seem. Seek solace in the knowledge that you have a heart overflowing with love and a spirit that refuses to be defeated.

So, continue being the incredible person you are, even if the support you receive isn't always on par with what you give. Embrace the strength within you, and remember that it's okay not to receive the same support. You are enough, and your journey is one of resilience, growth, and unwavering self-belief.

26/05/2023

When I give, it does not come with strings. I'm not keeping track of what you owe me. When I give, I choose to do so without ulterior motives. I give because I'm genuine. I give because I know what it's like to be without. To long for and be ignored. To speak and not be heard. To care for and have nothing returned. When I give it's because I get it. It's because I know the value in what I have in my heart and I refuse to let the world stop me from sharing that. But when things start being taken for granted. When you no longer appreciate my sincerity. I won't switch, I won't get angry, and I won't be spiteful. I'll just get smart and I'll change your role in my life. Because when I give, I'm all in. But when I'm done, there's no looking back.

25/05/2023

Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you're a good person and a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good and what's not - won't. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and not lose something real. Always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for..

24/05/2023

It took me a long time to realize that not everything in life is meant to be a beautiful story. Not every person we feel something deep and moving with is meant to make a home within us, is meant to be a forever. Sometimes, people come into our lives to teach us how to love; and sometimes, people come into our lives to teach us how not to love. How not to settle, how not to shrink ourselves ever again. Yes, sometimes people leave but that's okay, because their lessons always stay, and that is what matters. That is what remains.

22/05/2023

When someone treats you like you're just one of many options, help them narrow their choice by removing yourself from the equation. Sometimes you have to try not to care, no matter how much you do. Because sometimes you can mean almost nothing to someone who means so much to you. It's not pride - it's self respect. Don't give part-time people a full-time position in your life. Know your value & what you have to offer, and never settle for anything less than what you deserve.

21/05/2023

I know life is hard. I know sometimes you feel like giving up: on people and on yourself. I know you have good days and bad days but more bad than good or so it seems. I know everyday you question yourself "what is this all for?" " am I making the right choices?" or "am I supposed to be here, now?". I know you have more questions than answers and most of the time you don't even know how to explain them. I know life is hard, but you have to keep going. You have to rise above the waters of your soul, and bloom, nomatter how hot the fire is. No matter how many arrows you carry on your back, believe me, you're a warrior. You're a soldier filled with both pain and love. And life, well, life is just another beast you were meant to tame and there is no one better for the job, other than you. 🤍

19/05/2023

No one knows what you are going through but you. People will judge you, talk about you, point fingers, and blame you. Do what is in your heart. Walk your own path. Be your own person. Their opinion of you is just their opinion. Ask yourself, "Does it really matter what they think?" Never ever let anyone steal your joy. As long as you don’t hurt anyone, just do what makes you happy and you don’t have to care about others.

17/05/2023

Peace of mind.

Yan ang importante ngayon. Hindi mo kailangan hingin ang opinyon ng ibang tao sa bawat desisyong gagawin mo. Tandaan mo buhay mo yan, ikaw ang dapat na magpapatakbo nito at hindi opinyon ng ibang tao.

Kung may umalis, let them leave. Be thankful sa mga taong nandyan at nag stay sayo despite of ur imperfection.

14/05/2023

Dear Self,

I'm sorry I'm sad sometimes and don't know why. I'm sorry I push people away. I'm sorry I'm scared and confused. I'm sorry I let you get hurt. I'm sorry it's hard sometimes to get motivated. I'm sorry I make you yell and get angry. I'm sorry it's hard to smile. I'm sorry you don't laugh the same. I'm sorry I make you long for things you can't have. I'm sorry I can't help you... I'm sorry I'm me.

13/05/2023

🤍

11/05/2023

Dear Friend,

I am writing to you because I know you’re hurting, and you know that I know you’re hurting, but every time I see you I feel like all I do is add awkwardness to the pain by saying nothing or mumbling one of those despised cliches. I’m so sorry. I so very much want to be a good friend to you through this, but I feel like a moose in a strait jacket: clumsy and clueless.

I have never been through what you’re going through, but even if I had I would not know exactly how you’re feeling. I want to honor your privacy, but at the same time I know that pain can be really lonely and so I want to be your friend through this… I just don’t know how.

Please teach me to be your friend through this. I don’t want to talk about the past if it reminds you of happier times and intensifies this present sadness. I don’t want to talk about the future if it makes you feel anxious. I don’t want to talk about me – I feel guilty sometimes for having it so easy while you are in the midst of the furnace. And of course, I don’t want to make you talk about you – this is consuming enough for you already. And yet we’ve always been able to talk. So educate me. Let me know if it’s a talking day, or a silent day. I’m all for animal conservation, but lets not have any elephants-in-the-room..

I love you and I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Whack me on the head if I turn into that awkward cliche-drooling friend again. I want to do better than that.

I’m with you and for you,
Me.

10/05/2023

What if?

08/05/2023

i am not everyone's cup of tea and i will never be. people might misunderstood my choices, but it is never my thing giving out explanation when i know i don't owe them one. that’s why i let people see me as how they see. define me as how they define me.

i have so much more to prove to myself. i am yet to understand how things work for me, and yet to define my purpose. negative feedback will never be out from the narrative but i no longer want to leave a space for them to get stuck in the corner and drown myself with the thoughts of believing in them.

i am into nurturing and feeding my soul with peace, growth, pure connection and happiness. and now they asked me, should they be enough reasons why i rarely have many people around?

i always choose to whom i want to show my garden to, and it's not necessary to let everyone in.

07/05/2023

Dati takot na takot ako mawalan ng kaibigan but Alex Gonzaga said on her vlog, “You're not growing if you're not losing friends” and that reality slapped me so hard. May konting nag i stay pero halos lahat dumaan lang talaga sa buhay mo, to give memories, to give experiences and to learn something.

Now marami akong kilalang tao pero konti lang sa kanila ang tinatawag kong kaibigan ❤ If you leave go, thank you and if you stay thank you din. Di na ko takot mawalan ng kaibigan kc I already found my true friends na sure ako na di ako iiwan, yung taong tutulungan kang umasenso kasama siya hindi yung ibaba ka dahil takot silang masapawan.

So you, if you're reading this, wag ka matakot mawalan ng kaibigan, walang permanente sa mundo and if you found that true friend na sinasabi ko be thankful enough.Thank you sa mga nag stay❤️

05/05/2023

Sabi nila “tumulong ka sa iba para pag ikaw nangailangan may tutulong sa’yo.” Yes, dati naniniwala ako jan.. pero nung dumating ako sa point na ako yung may kailangan, wala akong mahingian ng tulong.. sa dinami dami ng tao na tinulungan ko, ni isa walang nag abot ng kamay nung mga oras na nahuhulog ako..

that’s one of the saddest realities in life. pero wag mo hayaan na mabago nun yung pananaw mo na “maraming mabubuting tao sa mundo”

instead, “tumulong ka ng buong puso, yung walang inaasahang kapalit..”

learn ur lessons in a positive way.

05/05/2023

02/05/2023

Lately i managed to think how important it is to have a concrete boundaries to unimportant things.

Now i learnt how to set limits to all the things and for me it’s actually exciting and interesting. I think I’ve created a huge line over the things that’s not helping me or to those matter that is not giving me growth.

Now i learn how to easily avoid people without feeling the guilt or getting hurt and mastered ignoring their petty rants and troubles they have caused.

There are times that i regret doing things for people. Times that i regret investing too much emotions and efforts for people. Times where i regret risking my time for them just to feel they are loved and valued but unfortunately things have changed and one thing to realize that they just need you and they never did care for you.

Stop yourself for always being there to people who don’t value you. Stop being a people pleaser and start pleasing yourself to become better. Always choose to be better and start building a circle where everyone can improve.

Stop yourself from prioritizing ungrateful people but start prioritizing yourself to improve more. Learn to love yourself, always seek peace in your heart. Time heals deep wounds. I know You deserve better.