26/10/2022
You don't know how tired I am. Everything feels really tiring. I don't even understand myself sometimes, I just know that there is something wrong with me but nobody notice it. I don't know what to do just to bring back my excitement to live. I needed help but I stayed silent. All along I was not okay, but I kept it all inside.
Sometimes, I wake-up feeling nothing. I feel like living is suffering. Sometimes I feel so empty, while other times I feel like my heart is tearing apart. It's not easy to live like this. I am feeling miserable and nobody knows about it. Sometimes I wish there is someone out there who can understand what I feel because I feel so terrible about myself. I feel so worthless, and I feel like I am not going to be okay.
It's hard to lie to myself every day that I am going to be alright. The truth is, all my hopes are already gone for so long. I live but I feel like a dead person inside. And sometimes, I wish everything will just come to an end.