12/07/2024
behind the smile na ipinapakita ko, there are thousands of pain na matagal ko ng tinatago—sa family issue,family problem, school problem, insecurities, financial problem, sa sarili ko. Sobrang bigat na sa dibdib. I always wanted to end my life but still andun pa rin yung hope na sana matapos na 'to. But then again, everytime na gigising ako in the morning, problems na naman yung bubungad sakin. Hanggang sa nasanay na'ko. Pero mahirap mag-pretend na masaya ka, na ok kalang na ayos lang lahat, sobrang nakakapagod. They'll say to you na, "Buti ka pa ang saya saya mo". But they don't know na meron ka ding mabigat na problema at lungkot na dinadala. That's the most painful.