09/02/2023
Happy Valentine's Day! I know that love has different meanings. I know that people get love in different ways. God's love, family's love, friends' love, and romantic love. I know that I've got those, except for the last one.
Honestly, there are several individuals who are making covert approaches, moves, and gestures towards me, but I am anxious to entertain them. I feel awkward engaging with or talking to them. I'll be attacked with my anxiety.
So, below is what I wanted to confess or express.
How does an introverted person with social anxiety deal with the conflict between the desire to stay home and the desire to go out and find a partner?
Introversion and social anxiety are defined in different ways.
But what if a person has both introversion and social anxiety?
Based on observation, there are people who are introverted but not socially anxious. There are people who are introverted but have relationships.
I still remember when my uncle asked me if I had a "jowa."
I said, "No, I hadn't."
Then he replied, "People should get married."
Then I just smiled.
And he added, "Just have some time to hang out, get out of your house, and wander with your friends." "You are always here inside your house, hiding." "It sounds disgusting if you don't get married." "You grow old alone."
Actually, it wasn't just my uncle who told me that. Even our neighbors have told me about it since they have noticed how reserved, shy, and frightened of strangers I am. I never leave my house; I just keep to myself and avoid social interaction. They say I'm not ugly enough to be shy and afraid to go out and socialize with others.
Honestly, and not to brag, I'm not really ugly. I'll admit that I have a pretty face, but my social phobia is just bothersome for everything.
The fact that even when the person I like talks to me and makes friends with me, I still feel cringeworthy and awkward, such that I'm not at ease and still scared. For this reason, I "deadma" and "snob" them.
I was just sad when my behavior was constantly misunderstood as bratish and strict. I was cursed sometimes because of it. I just wanted to explain that I'm not mean; I'm just having a social phobia.This illness might be just a simple disorder for other people, but when you have it, it is really difficult.
We, who are socially anxious, are just curious about getting into a romantic relationship.
Does anybody here have social anxiety disorder and have been in a romantic relationship?
Ctto.