21/09/2024
I finally admit to myself that I am not okay. I used to make myself believe that I am a strong person and I don't need anyone to make myself happy. I used to lie to myself that I will be just fine even when I have tears in my eyes. I've forced myself to behave like a calm person, but deep in me, there is a raging hate in my heart and a loudest chaos in my mind. Now, I admit to myself that there is something wrong with the constant sadness and hate that I feel in my heart.
The truth is, I've been suffering from these unwanted feelings for so long. I was just so quiet to pretend that I was peaceful. I never wanted anyone to see me miserable. I never wished for anyone to feel pity about me. I've tried to pretend that I was happy and contented with my life, but right now, I could no longer bear with the sadness and the pain that I've been feeling. I finally admit to myself that I don't want to feel alone. I want a shoulder to cry on. I want someone to understand me and say that my feelings are valid. I finally realized that there is nothing to be ashamed of for not being okay. It's okay to feel this way. And sometimes, I just have to keep going.
— Shiori X | Artwork : hessah._.art
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