26/02/2024
Over the past few years, I've been navigating a journey with PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder), and social anxiety. It hasn't been easy, but I've come to realize the importance of being open and honest about these things.
PTSD isn't just a condition confined to veterans of war; it's a silent assailant that can haunt anyone who has endured trauma. It's the nightmares that jolt us awake, the panic that grips us unexpectedly and the hypervigilance that keeps us on edge. It's not a weakness; it's a testament to our strength in surviving.
CPTSD, a more complex iteration born from prolonged trauma and abuse, is a labyrinth of pain and dysfunction. It's the shattered sense of self, the pervasive feelings of shame and worthlessness, and the relational difficulties that plague every aspect of our lives. It's a wound that festers beneath the surface, infecting every thought, every emotion, every interaction.
Social anxiety, too, is a relentless foe that preys upon our deepest insecurities. It's the fear of judgment, rejection, and humiliation. It's the relentless self-criticism, the incessant worry about saying or doing the wrong thing, It's the racing heart, the trembling hands, and the relentless self-doubt that cripple us when faced with the simplest interactions. It's a constant battle between the desire for connection and the terror of being seen. We are our own worst enemies and critics.
Living with these conditions has presented numerous challenges for me, from managing triggers to navigating everyday social situations. Some days are harder than others where simple tasks become daunting challenges, and the world can feel like a very hostile place.
I'm sharing this because I believe it's essential to break the silence surrounding mental health. Too often, these conditions are stigmatized or misunderstood, leading to feelings of isolation for those struggling. By speaking out, I hope to contribute to a more compassionate and supportive community.
If you're also dealing with similar challenges, please know that you're not alone. There is strength in seeking help and sharing our stories. Let's continue to support each other and foster a culture of understanding.
Thank you for taking the time to read this and for being a part of my journey. Your support means the world to me.