31/12/2023
Forgive the Church..
A time when do and don't is spread.. forgive the Church please.
I read from someone on this space how the church wounded her so bad that she hasn't been in church for years.. 😭
Let me share my own..
At 11, the church almost buried me.. or so I felt!
We got to church and I had forgotten my head tie, didn't even know how that happened because mum is always so conscious..
Favour, the Sunday School teacher called, where is your head tie.. na when I realize say, e no dey my head..
Get up, go and meet your mum and get handkerchief or something.. I didn't want to go, like have you seen the big church? The thought of searching sit by sit for her.. No please 🥺
Ma please.. You can't be in church without head tie!
Get out, leave!
I went out, sat close to the children's church.. hoping She would ask me to come inside but No!
She came out: You need deliverance from the spirit of stubbornness and a lot of other things said.. Till service closed, I wasn't allowed in.
When my mum came, a lot of things were said.. Mum looked at me and said nothing (I wished she did, lol)
That week was the most troubled I remember as a kid. The church first called me stubborn, possessed and a witch!
Because of 'head-tie'
With tears I cried, God forgive me. But then, I took the title 'stubborn' The church ruined my childhood for it reminded me almost every other Sunday.. More like God hating on you for a mistake you made!
When I talk about Royal House of Grace, they say I'm obsessed.. Guess I am!
The first time I attended RHG, I was scared for them!
If God was so angry with an 11year old for not covering her hair, how much more this adults? I knew I wasn't coming back to this church or rather, I didn't know how traumatized I was.
But the message by Bishop Frank, it kept playing in my subconscious till I found my way back.
I noticed this man (Apostle Zilly) walk in, something about his atmosphere wowed me, I just couldn't place it. He preached about the mercy and grace of God, never have I heard a message like that!
Ever experienced where a person is talking and you're healing?
I'm saying, give the church a chance.
Drop the title, I realized how soft I was and I'm often surprised that even I thought I was stubborn 🤣
Recently, a case involving a 17yr old female and a 24yr old male.. The church asked: How sure are we that the lady didn't seduce him 🤦♀️ tho it was the lady who reported!
She was left to find fault within herself till I stopped it! You shouldn't hurt on the church's behalf, forgive the Church and heal..
Please Heal
Also, don't write off all because of one 🥺
Allow yourself heal.
I apologize on behalf of the church 🙏
You can change the church, but please don't give up on church ❤️
Udo.
365/365 🍸