19/03/2023
MY PAIN STORY ("POEM")
Drawn by the shackles of depression
Propelled by peer pressure affiliations
I embarked on this, thinking less of regression
Seeking nothing but peace, and adulation
To be validated by peers
To act, like I faced my fears
Think not too far, on the journey I embarked
It was, a journey of liability, to die Young.
Even though,from the start, I knew I have been entrapped
Afterall, without peace of mind, I don't mind, not living long
Lo! The beginning of my end has come
And the end of my beginning, is gone
Well, don't blame me much, I did try resisting
But first, I had my own thoughts to fight
Always thinking about my fears, that has always been existing
Everything was just about me: me and my plights
Remember oh ye, that I tried
I seldom slept, not even at nights.
Then, there were people to please
If I refused to help, I couldn't be called "selfless"
Always at my fingertips, my pleasure, to lease
Later recoiling, to feel dejected and helpless
Looking for something to resort to
Rooting for people,playfully to retort to
While soliloquizing in a bar
I overheard people, telling similar stories
The disparities between our stories, were not too far
Stories of pain, grief, obscurity and gories
"All animals are equal, but there are ones that are more equal than others"
Seems, we were, in this context, the "others"
Drugs and smokes, I did start to take a lot of them
Sorrows were gone, no traces of pain
I felt excited, elated and light-hearted
A feeling of light tickles, that did make me giggle
At last, I found peace and joy
Alas, it couldn't last, for me to enjoy
Painkillers and smokes, were fizzling me, us, away
I was slowly dissappearing, dying, alongside my pains
An hour, a day, a week, a month, and a year
We would wake up, to count our years.
Having known we'll die afterall,
We increased our intake of ethanol
On my sickbed, I had a few curses
To the day I was born,
To everyone that put me on wrong causes,
And, to them, that cares less, if I'm gone...
But, since I have no one to blame, hence
I blame nobody, but my miserable self
MY PAIN STORY
Chijioke Destiny (Esq)
