28/02/2024
When I'm with you, I'm with you
A small conversation overheard by Kopybara between him, a stately free man, a famous skier, 37 years old, and her, a stately married woman, 37 years old. They have known each other for several years, travel to Europe together, enjoy skiing, and go to the same places. She visits his house and his parents’ house, and he gives her New Year gifts and flowers just like that.
Him: I need a serious relationship, family, children, joint plans.
She: Here I am, take whatever you want. As for plans, I never understood what “to go next week” meant; it seemed to me that I could only go right now.
Him: I want children.
She: I don't have them. If there were, I would give it to you. If you need children, take them - there they go.
Him: I want you to give me children.
She: Do you really want this? How do you see it? Organisms are crawling out of my body against my will and desire, and you hold my hand, peer into where they are crawling from and say: “This is it! She gives birth to my children." Do you want this right now?!
Him: Okay, if I take the children, will you be their mother?
She: I don't know, but I can try. I can come to you and stay with them until I get tired of them.
Him: I don’t want you to come, I want to live together.
She: You and I lived together many times. And after two hours maximum, and usually after thirty minutes, you forget that you “live with me,” you go to clean your skis, you go call your parents, you go about your business and I’m not in your head at that moment. When you clean your skis, you think about skis. That's why I'll leave the moment you start cleaning them. Even though my body will sit in the same place, I will leave. And every time you don't think about me, I leave. And every time I don't think about you, I leave. But now I'm thinking about you. And when I'm with you, I'm with you.
Him: And how do you see our life?
She: I don’t see I live for her. When I think about you, I am with you. When you think about