Soulfully Unique

07/02/2024

My Stories

Discover stories by Annetta Brown on Vocal. With pen in hand and heart laid bare, I write a chronicle of experiences, transforming the ordinary into extraordinary verses that resonate with the universal rhythms of existence.

07/02/2024

My Newest Poem

Embrace The Art of The Mind

07/02/2024

https://vocal.media/poets/garden-in-my-soul

In the Soil of Spirit, Roots of Strength

07/02/2024

https://vocal.media/poets/the-rose-and-her-thorns

Embracing the Pain, Unveiling the Beauty

17/03/2023

Things start getting real when you start setting boundaries and owning your truth. However you lose everyone who is not for your highest good. Now that's a hard lesson to learn because the people you thought were supposed to be in your life the people who said they loved you or they got you, hid or left you alone to drown in your pain unbeknownst to them because you hold everything inside until you finally can't take it anymore, then you explode....learning how to react differently than what you normally do is a challenge and you must stay calm to pass that test.
It gets ugly when your alone to fight your darkness. You struggle with wanting to die or stay alive. Oh! Did I go there? Are we not supposed to talk about those kind of things, Oh my bad, sorry not sorry... Because when a loved one was battling cancer and cried out for help she was thrown under the bus and buried and forgot about by most..Oh but I didn't....when she wanted to die to end the pain all she wanted was someone to listen, not say a word, just sit and listen.... That's not so hard right?
Because when we can't "talk" , about things that are hurting us where do people expect us to go? To a doctor, a counselor right? When you have done all that but it doesn't fill the emptiness inside then what? When you reach out to those you actually love only for them to turn their backs on you then what? That's right, that's why so many people commit su***de it's their last hope.
Why do we hold it all inside because in my generation we are told, We Don't Talk About That Stuff".
Weather it's depression, a hidden illness, suicidal thoughts, spiritual warfare, r**e, addiction, anything that is emotional we should feel safe to talk about it.
I have battled many trials in my life on my own because I felt it was no use talking about it. Now I'm owning my truth. When a loved one reaches out to me I'll be there the best that I can, I may not have all the answers and maybe my presence will hopefully be enough. I can only hope that my love and kindness, a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen and a hug to hold you for a moment, will at least give you some comfort.
Being alone has really helped me to understand a few things that the more present you are the more aware you become. It's a long hard dark road but you have to travel through your own darkness to finally reach your light and the brighter you shine the better you and everyone around you will be....Netta

21/01/2023

There isn't a day that goes by that Im not pondering my life, my choices, all the time I wasted on some really sh*tty people and I've done my best not to become one myself.
I have put myself through so much bu****it it's ridiculous. Always doing ,doing ,doing for others just to get sh***ed on in the end and left alone to fend for myself.
However where others thought they broke me little did they know I was learning....
With each hit I took in life I turned it around I became defiant to the abuse and wicked opinions of others....
With each set back, with each loss, with each judgment I swallowed...
I was learning
Learning my worth
Learning to walk away
Learning to love myself
I was a fighter coming into this world
Wasn't meant to be controlled or conditioned
Or to conform to the beliefs of others
I was and still am curious about life and I'm always learning.
I am living proof that coal eventually becomes a diamond and that's what I am a diamond carved and shaped into the person I am meant to become .....
Never again will I set my worth down to be trampled on. It will be held high away from greedy hands and small mindedness.
Don't take my kindness for weakness. I am far from weak ....
Love Netta

13/01/2023

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You got this 💯

12/01/2023

I look back at all the heartache and pain
no more tears rolling down my face
nothing but lessons learned and wisdom to gain
these emotions I will sit with and embrace

stepping into my power one day at a time
Like a phoenix, I'll spread my wings and rise
each treacherous mountain I will climb
my soul tribe hears my battle cries

Nothing can withstand the tests of life
shaping and molding me into my truth
the light that pours through me as sharp as a knife
my life path is my living proof…

Soulfully Unique
© Annetta Brown

Image by M. Maggs from Pixabay

17/12/2022

Shattered

My heart has been broken a time or two
nothing like this an ongoing pain
no vice will ever fill

Everyone tells me things will work out,
give it time, move on, let go, you'll be ok,
your not the only one going through it

I don't wish this pain on no one,
a pain so unbearable at times that
the voices in my mind tell me to quit
but the voice in my soul
tells me to hold on …...

No matter the time that passes by my heart aches
I want to change things I want to go back and try to do things different
Been in and out of relationships my entire life
all because of words said to me that I believed
afraid their coming true for me
but I'm not dead yet

Survived this far on my own
in and out of love wondering where I went wrong or what's wrong with me
that even the people I love the most have abandoned me
to force yourself to keep living day in and day out knowing you can live without them
but why, what happened to this world.....

I meet new people just to push them away
scared to try scared to love scared just scared
trying not to care what people think
knowing the people who broke me
are laughing and making jokes

Life is short too short to be holding onto grudges
not forgiving one another,
One day I won't be here,
What does that matter right....
Don't cry for me once I'm gone,
just know that I loved with ALL of my heart
I did what I could in life, to the best of my ability

I did my best raising my kids,
Everyone tried to interfere with everything I was trying to do for them
Thinking I was an abusive parent, which I wasn't
I just didn't know how to communicate so I yelled a lot,
I was always working doing what I had to do for them
trying to live my life the best that I could
yes, I made many mistakes, but the pain of
losing them because of all the mistakes I've made
and then losing my grandbabies too
all I wanted was to be the best grandparent I could be.....

There is so much on my heart to say
but fear it won't be understood, or it would be ridiculed
time won't heal this pain..........
My little family was all I had......
all the love in the world will never compare to the love I have for them
there is not a day, a minute, an hour, a second that
they are not on my mind,
I always find myself in between love and anger
but never hate,,,,,

I forgave all who hurt me,
the pain of it all still lingers,
Just know that I am truly sorry,
for everything and that I will always love you all.

Love Netta

03/05/2022