23/03/2023
Sometimes, I feel so lonely and empty. I feel like I'm not getting any better. There is this emptiness in me that wants me to stop waking-up in the morning. I feel so tired. It seems like I don't have the energy to face the world anymore. I just want to sleep so that I would never feel lonely. I want to escape from all the feelings that's been haunting me.
Whenever I close my eyes, I wish I would never wake-up anymore. But I wake-up every morning it's sad to bear this kind of feeling. A part of me wants to die, while there is a little part of me that wants to be saved too.
I wish the feeling of emptiness will just disappear when I wake-up. I want to feel a little less lonely every day until I feel okay. But I don't know why it's just so hard to be okay. Even how hard I try, I still end up feeling lonely. And most of the time, it's trying to kill me.
— Shiori X
