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Revival Disability Magazine An upcoming digital magazine about disability, s*xuality, intersectional feminism.
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We aim to reclaim stories of Disability from India through first-person narratives. We are borne out of marginality and are here to Stay

A month ago, in arguably one of the best educational institutions in the country, I was alone with 2 clonazepam and 1 zo...
15/08/2022

A month ago, in arguably one of the best educational institutions in the country, I was alone with 2 clonazepam and 1 zolfresh. I had been saving them for almost a month until then for the worst of the worst days. I used to wake up at 5:30am every morning, cry silently in the washroom and harm myself and get ready for classes. When I came back to the room after classes, I used to harm myself again and look at my medication for approximately half an hour wondering if I should take clonazepam or overdose on other meds I am on before opening the laptop to study again. This continued for a week until my mind and body completely gave up and I self harmed all day, called the campus doctor while having a panic attack, ate both the clonazepam pills, lied to the admin and ran to Delhi.
I don’t exactly remember what happened for the next 30 days as I was heavily medicated but I do remember that my blood stained pants are still lying in the corner of my room and none of my partners and lovers dared to touch my thighs.
Had I not done this, I’d have been 5 years free from self harm in a couple of months but now I am on my 2 clonazepam pills and 1 zolfresh everyday and there are no nightmares.

Image description : A hand full of medicines and pills of different colours.

Rest has always been defined along able-bodied parameters — to rest is to repair, to replenish body-minds such that they...
26/07/2022

Rest has always been defined along able-bodied parameters — to rest is to repair, to replenish body-minds such that they may be able to then prepare itself to create more labour. Rest is governed by a linear timeline -- able bodies work, they tire out, they rest, they replenish themselves, they get back to work.

For the able bodied rest brings comfort, but it's a subject marred with discomfort. To rest is to be lazy, be unproductive, be unuseful, and therefore, unworthy. Within such a system, disabled rest is revolutionary. To embrace slowness in a world that is built against its survival is disabled resistance.

So what is disabled rest? Read our guide on Disabled Rest by

About Crossroads Collective: Crossroads Collective is one of the few groups led and run by and for Dalit-Bahujan persons...
24/07/2022

About Crossroads Collective: 

Crossroads Collective is one of the few groups led and run by and for Dalit-Bahujan persons with disabilities. It aims to capacitate DBA people with disabilities, chronic conditions and caregivers. Being new to the intersectional social justice movements as a collective, we are currently working on capacity building of the group members through training sessions on disability and intersectional rights in India. With further training in narrative writing, we aim to come up with an anthology of narratives written on disability, s*xuality, caste and gender by disabled, q***r, trans, members of the larger DBA community.

About the founder: 

Bhanu Priya is a Bahujan q***r woman with psychosocial disability and chronic pain. She is a fellow at CREA which is the funding base for the Crossroads Collective project. She is a PhD scholar in Disability Studies at the University of Illinois Chicago. She is also a writer at In Plainspeak, Gaysi Family, Mad in Asia, The YP Foundation, and Velivada. You can follow her on .priya.bhojwal on instagram.

21 year old Dalit q***r autistic student needs a job (full time/half time) immediately in Delhi NCR. They need a job to ...
11/07/2022

21 year old Dalit q***r autistic student needs a job (full time/half time) immediately in Delhi NCR. They need a job to survive, be away from their abusive family, and other expenses.

They majored in psychology (and a minor in philosophy) and trained in qualitative and quantitative research, campaigning, social media marketing and research skills. Willing to learn anything the job requires.

If you know of any jobs where I might be the right fit, or know someone who does, please do let me know.

Contact no- 6303792197
Email- [email protected]

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21 year old Dalit q***r autistic student needs a job (full time/half time) immediately in Delhi NCR. They need a job to survive, be away from their abusive family, and other expenses.

They majored in psychology (and a minor in philosophy) and trained in qualitative and quantitative research, campaigning, social media marketing and research skills. Willing to learn anything the job requires.

If you know of any jobs where I might be the right fit, or know someone who does, please do let me know.

Contact no- 6303792197
Email- [email protected]

All around, there's a pink border with the words "amplify" continuously written on them.

Dislang is the voice of dissent. Moving away from the inspirational p**n and expert advice, it positions itself as a med...
10/07/2022

Dislang is the voice of dissent. Moving away from the inspirational p**n and expert advice, it positions itself as a medium that puts disabled, chronically ill and other marginalized voices at the forefront.

Highlighting our fav q***r disabled collectives this month 💖First up, we have Q***r Disabilities Nepal (***r.disabled) 🌈...
07/07/2022

Highlighting our fav q***r disabled collectives this month 💖

First up, we have Q***r Disabilities Nepal (***r.disabled) 🌈

Q***r Disabilities Nepal is a loose forum of a network of people at the intersectionality of q***r and disability. It is an online-based platform mainstreaming the issue of q***r disability by participating in various programs. It tries to narrow the gap that is present between the q***r and disability community of Nepal. They focus on q***r disabilities at the intersectionalities and mental health issues of q***r diversity.

Q***r Disabilities Nepal page was started on May 11, 2021 by Safal Lama (), a non-binary disabled person belonging to the indigenious community with the objective of awareness, representation, and creating a platform of q***r people with disabilities in Nepal.

What are the challenges that need to be navigated?

says :

Firstly, there is no space for a Q***r disabled indigenious discourse within the q***r community itself. So as a result, we have no reference point of how these kind of collectives work.

Secondly, Lack of funding, resources and community members. Talking about q***r disabled issues requires vocabulary and there is a severe lack of of it, particularly in Nepalese.

 ***rArtist  Hi I'm Shikhar, I use they/them pronouns and I'm an artist for revival disability India, for me my art, in ...
03/07/2022

***rArtist

Hi I'm Shikhar, I use they/them pronouns and I'm an artist for revival disability India, for me my art, in centre have always been political and social. One of my series, which is called Women and Revolution, talks about how women, q***r, disabled, or any other minorities have been the forefront of the revolutions we've ever had, from Stonewall to Shaheen bagh, we always had em fighting for the rights.

For me, disability pride month means visibility, love and acceptance for our own disabled bodies, it honouring our uniqueness and connecting all of this to larger movement that is disability justice. The fight for disability representation and equal rights is not new, and it has always overlapped with q***r rights. As a disabled and q***r person, I celebrate Disability Pride to honor the disability rights advocates who came before me.
Which is one of the many reasons why, we are specifically celebrating Disability Pride Month at Revival Disability india, because we all need to be celebrated with our diversity and uniqueness and find solidarity in turn.

  :  Disability Pride Month, much like Q***r Pride Month, is all about taking pride in our authentic identities to rebel...
03/07/2022

: Disability Pride Month, much like Q***r Pride Month, is all about taking pride in our authentic identities to rebel against the discrimination we have to face in this ability-normative world.

Q***rness lies in our crippled bones, in our disabled walk, in our disabled voice, the way in which we make love to our partners, or decorate our crutches with sunflowers.

As disabled folks, we're seen as pitiful, self-conscious people with miserable lives due to our disabilities. But we're just like everyone else and are just trying to make the most of what we have.

We're not seen as "q***r enough" because we don't fulfill an able-bodied aesthetic of q***rness. But today, we're here to say f**k that, we're q***r in our own disabled kind of way.

So in DPM 2022, let's try to learn about diversity and acceptance from the world's biggest and most diverse minority, i.e. the disabled community!

 ***rArtist : Hi everyone! I am Ritika, an autistic Q***r artist/illustrator. I am part of this amazing community of dis...
03/07/2022

***rArtist : Hi everyone!
I am Ritika, an autistic Q***r artist/illustrator.
I am part of this amazing community of disabled q***r people called Revival Disability community!
My work revolves around the theme of neurodivergence, disability, disabled rest, codependence, community healing etc! I use art as a medium to decipher this overly coded world!
Please give love and support to my work and my community!

  : I am Q***r. I deserve Q***rness, whether I choose to explore it or not.There are multiple s*xualities. My s*xuality ...
01/07/2022

: I am Q***r. I deserve Q***rness, whether I choose to explore it or not.

There are multiple s*xualities. My s*xuality is my own creation. I can paint it in my own disabled colors, my own tongue, my own language, my own gender expression, my own dissent. We create our own s*xuality.

This Disability Pride Month, we're exploring how different identities intersect : Disability afterall, is not a blanket term and Disability and Q***rness cannot be seen as independent of each other. How can we include disabled voices in different feminist movements? Whose disabled voices are heard and whose are ignored? Are all disabled people equal? What does it mean to be disabled and political in a country like India? Why are dalit disabled voices ignored within the disability movement?

We will be exploring these, so stay tuned

.for.equality : Q***r-Trans Intimacies And Communities : Envisioning Rights And The Way Forward. This was our first time...
01/07/2022

.for.equality : Q***r-Trans Intimacies And Communities : Envisioning Rights And The Way Forward. This was our first time taking up space at a Q***r conference and introducing Revival Disability India to a larger audience. We met several disabled q***r folks, as well as non-disabled allies and discussed a way forward : and that how we can pave a way for a disabled q***r future : a future of different feminisms, a future of different disabilities, different s*xualities, different intimacies.

Our heart fills with joy and pride for our friends over at .for.equality, ***rmuslimproject, , , , , , , , , , , , , ***r, .archee, , , .cake_ and everyone else!!!!

June has been a month of in-person events here at Revival Disability India. We were at Q***r Made weekend organized by  ...
01/07/2022

June has been a month of in-person events here at Revival Disability India. We were at Q***r Made weekend organized by . It has been lovely to meet, laugh, cry, grieve and dissent with our q***r friends after so long.

Thanks to ._license for making this happen 💖🌈

We'll be at Q***r Made from 25th-26th June organized by  in Delhi!Featuring art prints by ._license and  and shirts and ...
16/06/2022

We'll be at Q***r Made from 25th-26th June organized by in Delhi!

Featuring art prints by ._license and and shirts and stickers by designed by and ._license!

Image description 1 : A dark blue background that says NGO, foundation and community - Revival Disability India. Below, the colourful pink background logo of Revival can be seen, with all sorts of q***r and disabled chosen families sitting together.

Below, the logo of Q***r Made Weekend can be seen. From 25th-26th June, Delhi.

Image description 2 - on a dark blue background, it's written : NGO, foundation and community

The following names are given





On the third slide, Revival Disability Community's new logo can be seen. On a pink floral background, several portraits of pride and disabled joy can be seen : q***r families huddled together, talking, smiling, and playing together.

The Woes Of A Disabled Q***r Woman And Her P**n : I was quite sure I was in an episode of ‘kids react to…’ as I sat on m...
06/06/2022

The Woes Of A Disabled Q***r Woman And Her P**n :

I was quite sure I was in an episode of ‘kids react to…’ as I sat on my friend’s bed, staring very confused at the laptop screen in front of me while my friends—2 girls and a guy—watched me closely for a reaction. My wtf-ness was at the able-bodied white woman by the pool who was chanting like a mantra, “f**k me, f**k me” in a very annoying high-pitched voice while being penetrated by the pool-cleaner randomly for no good reason. I wasn’t quite sure whether to laugh or cry and was very aware of the eyes on me. Well, was I supposed to be aroused in this bizarre situation? Or was I supposed to imagine myself in this situation? And was this what all the hype about p**n was?

And then, instead of h***y, I was mad. What was the hype about indeed? I glared daggers at my guy friend who looked a little embarrassed at this point as it was his p**n collection specially downloaded with a VPN on slow hostel Wi-Fi and brought to this night-out. The girls tried to calm me down, convincing me that it was his selection that was bad and there was better content out there.
Years later, after scouring the internet on my own, I’ve realized that there isn’t really too much better content for disabled q***r women. We are fed the same recycled garbage of context-less, foreplay-less pe*******on in the name of s*x that seems to only pander to the gaze and fantasies of straight non-disabled cis men like my dear friend. And worse, these men as our partners expect us to moan and scream in great pleasure at this sudden boink-boink when most vulva-owners don’t have much vaginal sensitivity. And then one tends to look at them like I looked at the screen that day and yell, "ho kya raha hai????!". When non-disabled cis men s*xt me (consensually ofcourse), I wonder, "Oh but can I really execute that position without atleast a dozen trips to the hospital and intrusive questions from my doctor along with my mother glaring at me?". My mother, who thinks s*x bras are a crime and that I'm too weak to have s*x. Oh, mother!

Anonymous narratives from our community - What is it really to be Disabled, Dalit And Q***r During Pride Month? Should w...
06/06/2022

Anonymous narratives from our community - What is it really to be Disabled, Dalit And Q***r During Pride Month? Should we be angry? Should we be thankful? Should we be proud? Proud in a world that looks down on disabled and dalit ways of being, existing, living, loving and grieving? Are we considered q***r only when we attend pride marches not accessible to us, or pride parties whose tickets are too expensive?

"My Crip-ness Is Incomplete Without My Q***rness. There can be no pride without disabled q***rs. There can be no pride without dalit anger. There can be no pride without disabled dissent. There can be no pride without radical care. There can be no pride without disabled q***rness. Able-bodied, cis savarna q***rness is a performance, a performance that we don't need to live up to. Now, it's time to take the power back."

"I find comfort in being gender q***r—in not conforming, and I'll tell you why. My identity gives me the freedom to choose, freedom of agency that I've never had regarding my medical condition or mobility. There are things in life that I can't control, like my disability, and then there are things where I get to carve out with my own curved disabled fingers, like my gender identity and the history of communities I want to be remembered by.

All my life, I've spent catching up to people, able-bodied norms, even gender norms. My non-binary identity is freedom from all of that."

"My non-disabled classmates in school would never really include me in conversations surrounding s*xuality and pleasure. It was automatically assumed that I was s*xless because I was physically disabled. This made me feel resentful towards able-bodied norms of gender and s*xuality. I began to loathe my disabled body because they were incapable of "looking", "moving", and "performing" in a certain way. I was always made to feel like I'm not living up to the savarna q***r aesthetic, whether that meant dancing on a popular trend on Instagram reels, or on the dancefloor of a pride party. My Disabled, Dalit walk was looked down upon."

(Continued)

My Crippness Is Incomplete Without My Q***rness. There can be no pride without disabled q***rs. There can be no pride wi...
05/06/2022

My Crippness Is Incomplete Without My Q***rness. There can be no pride without disabled q***rs. There can be no pride without dalit anger. There can be no pride without disabled dissent. There can be no pride without radical care. There can be no pride without disabled q***rness. Able-bodied cis savarna q***rness is a performance, a performance that we've never been able to live up to. Now, it's time to take the power back.

"I find comfort in being gender q***r—in not conforming, and I'll tell you why. My identity gives me the freedom to choose, freedom of agency that I've never had regarding my medical condition or mobility. There are things in life that I can't control, like my disability, and then there are things where I get to carve out with my own curved disabled fingers, like my gender identity and the history of communities I want to be remembered by. All my life, I've spent catching up to people, able-bodied norms, even gender norms. My non-binary identity is freedom from all of that."



"My disability affects everything in my life and it took a lot of time for me to realise and to accept that my gender and s*xuality are also inevitably influenced by my autism. I now identify as a neuro-q***r person and it helps explain a lot of things in my life. In addition, being born as a Dalit woman puts me at a disadvantage as I lacked the resources and safe spaces to explore my autism and my gender identity. We need better systems in place for us, Dalit q***r and Neuro q***r people."

"For example, my non-disabled classmates in school would never really include me in conversations surrounding s*xuality and pleasure. It was automatically assumed that I was s*xless because I was physically disabled. This made me feel resentful towards able-bodied norms of gender and s*xuality. I began to loathe my disabled body because they were incapable of "looking", "moving", and "performing" in a certain way. Gender is, at the end of the day, a performance—one that I haven't really been able to live up to."

This month we're exploring how Q***rness and Crippness are two identities that are inseperable for disabled q***r folks. Watch this space y'all 💖

Update : We're taking a break! We'll be back whenever our bodies allow us to, keep the Crip Revolution alive until then
21/05/2022

Update : We're taking a break! We'll be back whenever our bodies allow us to, keep the Crip Revolution alive until then

  Trigger warning: mention of ableism and abuseA physically disabled 25 year old woman recounts an incident where she wa...
09/05/2022



Trigger warning: mention of ableism and abuse

A physically disabled 25 year old woman recounts an incident where she was pitied for not being married and inquired about her whereabouts while travelling in ab auto rickshaw. Inspired by .crea's campaign and lived experiences from a community member, the question that we ask today is - why are disabled bodies in public under constant surveillance? Why are we not allowed to take up space freely? Why is our safety considered the collective responsibility of the entire society?

Anonymous recounts, "Everytime we wheel out of the house by ourselves, we’re asked intrusive questions about why we’re alone, with judgements passed about our families and caregivers.

Questions and comments about our eligibility for marriage and desirability, as well as our worth as individuals are passed freely with no consideration for our agency. The fact that disabled women's safety is often seen as everyone's responsibility with hetero-patriarchal, patronizing undertones only goes to show the pattern of viewing Disabled women as infants unable to make their own decisions."

Nu, 24 and q***r recounts - My body carries with it histories of being intruded upon, prodded by doctors and abused by ex boyfriends who saw my body as an open book to be violated and used. My body has been stared at, declared a novelty, a medical marvel, a body that needs to be named, shamed and labelled. Nobody has ever let my disabled, q***r body just "be", just exist in public spaces.

Rhea says, "I still remember an incident that took place when I was going to school with my mom in an auto. There was a car in front of the school gates and the auto driver kept on shouting that he has an "abnormal" passenger and that they should clear the road. I felt like I wanted to disappear and almost started crying when my mom told me to just ignore his words."

This May we have upcoming conversations with on the various intricacies of disabled abuse, grief and joy. Stay tuned!

 says "I am disabled. An abortion saved my health and possibly my life. Even if I wasn't in this situation and decided o...
08/05/2022

says "I am disabled. An abortion saved my health and possibly my life. Even if I wasn't in this situation and decided on abortion...not an easy decision btw, I still have the right to have one.

Abortion is a disability issue!"

How has community re-vived (pun intended 😋) and redefined healing for you? As  says, what exactly does "Healing" mean? W...
07/05/2022

How has community re-vived (pun intended 😋) and redefined healing for you?

As says, what exactly does "Healing" mean? Who has access to Healing? For folks with chronic illnesses Healing begin and where does it end? Recovery and healing is not an end point when you live with disabilities.

Do you agree? Tell us in the comments!

Art by ._license

Meme Thursday is my fav kind of Thursday
05/05/2022

Meme Thursday is my fav kind of Thursday

  : To anyone I have ever explained, what my demis*xuality is for me, they look at me as if I am making this up and it i...
05/05/2022

: To anyone I have ever explained, what my demis*xuality is for me, they look at me as if I am making this up and it is something that everyone experiences. No everyone doesn’t experience it, and no it is not what “women” are supposed to be. Dating has been the hardest when it comes to this, you may find someone hot like you want to kiss them hot, I don’t. I find people hot when I share a close emotional bond with them.

To anyone I have ever explained, what my debilitating pain, and my dynamic disability looks like, they look at me as if I am making this up and it is something that everyone experiences. No everyone doesn’t experience it. My chronic illnesses are not a bad period which for someone might have an end point. My chronic fatigue is not me feeling tired after a long day, that I can sleep it off. For me being Autistic and going through a sensory overload doesn’t mean a slight discomfort with loud noises, sounds or touch.

While I write this, I hold the awareness of intersectionality between my experiences of the world as an autistic person living with chronic illnesses, disability and identifying as Demi s*xual. However it is not a causal effect relationship.

My Autism, my chronic pain, my disability does not cause my Demis*xuality. I am Demis*xual not because I am scared of wanting s*x due to my pain but because that is who I am and that’s how I experience love.

  Book us for a session on Disability Based Q***r Violence! Snippets from our previous workshops with  and   on Disabili...
26/04/2022

Book us for a session on Disability Based Q***r Violence!

Snippets from our previous workshops with and on Disability, Q***rness, Trauma and Reclaiming spaces ✨

About Disabled Women Riot :

Disabled Women Riot started a year ago as an anonymous account on Twitter of disabled folks speaking out against abuse and violence. We wanted a space of disabled dissent and to make way for anger because anger, dissent and rioting is imperative in a non-disabled patriarchal framework which refuses to acknowledge the existence of individuals and collectives fighting from the margins. Nu started this account because they were shocked at the lack of visibility and access of the Disabled Me Too movement in India. Afterall, speaking out, empowerment, and putting your voice into the environment to be listened to, is a privilege. A privilege which numerous disabled women across intersections don't have. Women with speech disabilities and deaf women find it harder to communicate in a non disabled world and their narrative is most often overlooked. Abuse surrounding disabled women is related to inaccessible logistics.

Disabled women riot further took shape as a campaign in the month of July, on Disability Pride month, when Revival Disability Community collaborated with to start a conversation and a series of listening circles exploring how disabled women exist, thrive, loiter and survive in public spaces. This first session involved listening, viewing and responding to a short presentation - How do we, as Disabled folks intersect in public spaces? Why is visibility so important? How can we walk, wheel, or limp towards an intersectional future? How do we safely exist with our disabled bodies without fear of abuse?

Why do we invalidate our feelings by attributing the word, "ranting" to it? Our bodies serve as evidence. Evidence of discrimination, evidence of suffering, of joy, of intersectional desire. 

Artwork credit in slide 1 : Artist Lucy Jones

When a disabled person themselves identifies as as*xual, then the question arises as to whether they're internalising th...
09/04/2022

When a disabled person themselves identifies as as*xual, then the question arises as to whether they're internalising the pressure of the idea that they are not allowed to engage in s*xual intimacy. This not only serves to Invalidating as*xual identities, but also the self-identification of disabled folks, reminiscent of the tendency of neurotypical able-bodied individuals to view us as absolutely bereft of agency. 

When I came out as as*xual I came out to a fellow neurodivergent friend. They said "Just try it (s*x) out once." Although I recognise that it comes from a place of the well intentioned desire to help me “claim my s*xuality and my body”, I was quite certain of who I was, as I’ve been even as a precocious seven year old.

But I feel it in every fibre of my being that I dont desire s*xual intimacy. For me love is conveyed through emotional and intellectual intimacy, words of affirmation, acts of service and through the genuine camaraderie that comes with a deeply meaningful conversation, where silences are as poignant as words themselves.

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Being a s*xual disabled women often feels like the highest form of personal revolt. Breaking free of societal expectatio...
06/04/2022

Being a s*xual disabled women often feels like the highest form of personal revolt. Breaking free of societal expectations of how I should feel and think about my body, and what I should desire, feels like a revolution. When I started having s*x, I never stopped to ask myself if I really wanted it. It felt revolutionary, and I loved the fact that I could love my broken body enough for a few moments to be completely intimate with someone. It made me feel powerful.

But each time I stopped to think, I realised that there were other forms of revolution I loved more. Talking about my disabilty, even calling myself disabled around other people, these were acts of protest that made me feel more empowered. 

This is not to say that s*x and pleasure doesn't empower disabled folx. This is to say that empowerment comes in so many different forms. And identities are multifold.

I always hated the word 'as*xual'. To me, it meant agreeing with how society saw me as a disabled woman - a s*xually frigid being with no desire. It felt like validating everything I wanted to revolt again.

But slowly I realised that my desires looked different. For me, s*xual intimacy seemed like a chore. Something to get over with, on most days.

My as*xuality isn't perfect, just like my disabled activism isn't perfect. But these two imperfect things can coexist without overlapping each other. I am not as*xual because I am disabled, far far from it. I'm as*xual for the same reason that I'm disabled - I just am.

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