23/04/2024
Then, Present and Future
Big thank you to my family for always supporting me 🩷
Then - I was the quiet girl who sat in the corner at school, sometimes spending lunch breaks alone, lessons spent sat outside the head of years office and never truly feeling like she fit in. I really struggled, i'd make friends then lose them somehow and spent a good couple of years where my only friend was my sister, so it was a really difficult time.
The next 12+ years were also difficult, I had friends but I was constantly searching for a best friend and trying to fit in, doing things I didn't really enjoy and feeling anxious and at times depressed.
During the last 10 years, I've pushed myself out of my comfort zone and discovered how much I love to travel and see the world, sometimes alone! If only 13 year old me could see me now.
Present - I'm much more forgiving of myself and the way I am and think, despite still having anxieties and I have days where I struggle socially and feel like I don't belong, but I am much better than I was. I don't know if it's since I turned 30 or if it's just been a gradual progression but it's a relief to say the least. I still love to travel and want to continue seeing the world as much as possible but I'm proud to say i'm buying a property, so i'm starting a new adventure!
Future - I've never had a 5 or 10 year plan, and i've not really had any dreams or wants for the future, but I do know I want to continue travelling and seeing as much of the world as I can, whilst owning a property and I think i'd like to buy and sell properties that need work doing to them. I'm also excited to become more confident and learn to love who I am, and help others do the same🌟
When I look back at the past 20 🤯years, I can see how much I've grown in confidence and acceptance, I had so many counselling, cbt and hypnotherapy sessions but it never worked as for some reason I'd be confident and chatty with them, so they never saw an issue. But I think what's really helped is simply growing up and learning to appreciate the experiences i've had (good or bad) as without them I wouldn't be who I am now and I wouldn't have travelled as much as I have!
