29/11/2025
As we approach the last full moon of 2025 and this 9 year cycle 2017 to 2025. I have been deep reflection mode. About all the 9 year cycles.
The previous one my dad died of su***de in 2008 after my mum left her abusive marriage.
Last night, I was snuggled with my husband by the fire watching Prisioner 951 on BBC1. As I had a flashback. That is how I felt living with my dad. Like his hostage. Gaslight . Humiliated. Unsafe. Trapped. No one came to get me out of there. In fact the family systems said I had to stay.
Just like my dad had felt with his dad. I cried in the kindest arms of a man I have ever known. A man who at a last family function was ignored. When my dad an abuser was celebrated.
As I have risen in my power and healing. I have lost majority of my family. Who preferred that victim version of me. The one who did what she was told.
But as I rose my standards for myself and my life. A job I love. Being of service. Healing to create wealth. Speaking on stages. It made people feel uncomfortable 🤷♀️ because if the black sheep could do it why couldn't they ? 🙈
Over the last few years as my body struggled with conception I felt intense shame. As I saw judgement in peoples eyes. Then I realised my body was still in the past being held captive and now I had to seriously change my life so she could feel safe.
To mother and father all of my shadows. That is how commited I am to CLOSING THE GAP. To raising standards of my life even more. Because I know that little girl inside of me deserves EVERYTHING.
I see my souls journey. I am so fu***ng proud of myself. Everything I have achieved even though I have had some karma to cut through 🤣
It has been the making of me. Every lesson I learn. I teach. I change lives daily. I walked through the fire and live a life that I am in awe of.
Breaking every rule I was every told by society, family , media . I create a life of my own rules . Over the next 6 months I am planning another huge leap
This is your invitation to be the powerful creator of your life as I am. TO CLOSE THE GAP. Join me Thursday 4th dec 5pm GMT for full moon circle to let go of the old identities and ACTIVATE your queen😘 link in bio❤