10/09/2024
Today is World su***de prevention day!
It ironically falls on my birthday, and I am so grateful to be here.
I typed out this post in my notes just now and I can’t seem to post it. (These are the thoughts that run through my head: What will people think of me? What will people say? Will people judge me? Will people talk about me? Will my parents be ashamed of me?)
So I just can’t post it.
Just like people can't always ask for help.
Just like people can't talk to their friends.
Just like how some people can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Just like how some people can't believe they are worth it.
Just like the 1 in 400,000,000,000,000 chance of you being born, which makes you unique in a nearly incalculable way. (Pretty damn unique you are)
Just like every single dark tunnel you have travelled through in your life, you have climbed out. (Pretty damn brave you are).
Just like if you did end your time here on earth, your friends will wish for the rest of their lives that you told them what was wrong. (Pretty damn good reason to tell them. They care, trust me).
Just like 1 in 5 people have suicidal thoughts or ideology.
1 in 14 people self-harm.
1 in 15 people attempt su***de. (Pretty damn apparent that you are not alone in this. You have got this).
So on this incredible day (my birthday) lol, if this post helps one, two or a thousand people then that's the best birthday present for me. Along with my son singing happy birthday to me this morning on the phone. ❤️🎂🎶
It's been over a year since I hung on a rope and the only words that ever comes to mind is "Instant regret”.
F**k anyone who judges you for asking for help.
You can beat this. There is a way out.
I am living proof of that.
34.......Jesus christ give me another 34 and I'll be content. 🙏🏾❤️