17/04/2021
I always thought of what I wanted to be when I grow up:
I thoughts of places, dids ..... songs and words that will help me change the world in a better way. Roles I should selflessly play, dreams I should encourage, the acts, and arts I should profoundly sponsor.
While wishing of growing up, o God like in a blink of an eye time flew.
Now growing up doesn't make any sense.
Slowly, am realizing it might rob off the chances that can offer the purpose of my existence.
I honestly wish for the rewind to go back to the world of the boy I use to be, to say thank you to everyone who helped in pointing a path to my wellbeing, for every coin and time spent, and every gift of any form contributed to my growth.
I want to go back that the very day I wrote the first song, and the day I wrote the first poem with no intention of publishing it, and the day I first won the writing competition, that time when almost everyone around me cheered to the idea that, they are with someone who may one day become prominent, whose work can never go un noticed.
In the end there is a lot of things that doesn't matter any way, If I can go back in time; there are grades, and classes I will skip, arguments I won't try to win, relationships I won’t spent time on, and those (relationships) I will bring back to life by all means. Things I will unlearn and things I will learn with my whole, am 50% sure that maybe I will even skip college, or skip some courses; the only thing I really love about college and assures me that it wasn't a worst of time and money(though probably maybe the case), It's that it occurred to me that some classes were not really about the course, but about the general rules and philosophies of life, and somehow helped me realize how life/time worst school is, and how educations isn't about school and sitting in class following some rules as though doing so dictates the future we desire.
I remember one time our theory recturer telling us to forget what we know, that because some of the things we have been taught by our communities, parents, school teaches or books, connects us to the chain of failures in life, steals away our gifts to reason and our abilities to effectively respond to problems around us, even on personal level. He went saying that ' we are not like lawyers, lawyers creates problems; some of the rules and laws created by lawyers themselves are like traps so that lawyers can make money, and some laws are created to affect some people more than the others. Us we are engineers we create solutions and we also help human beings enjoy the gift of life. ...........'
oh my God, it's always time passing by each and every moment pushing us to the edge of our existence. Wishing for all these things makes me lose even more on the stages of life and the opportunities that comes with it.............
today I think it's right to forget about the future and to also let the sleeping dogs lie asleep, 'cause if I keep awaking them, their barking will make it difficult for me to concentrate on now making miss out on much of the opportunities around me....................................................................................
