Mozzie Down Under

03/09/2024

At first glance, I may seem calm and collected, but underneath the surface, my emotions are bubbling with intensity. I recently discovered that one of my beloved chickens, Frosty, is unwell, and as a first-time chicken owner, I am feeling overwhelmed and unsure of what to do. However, these intense emotions are not necessarily bad; they are a testament to how much I care for my feathered friends. As I watch my partner sell his property here, where I had grand plans of building a 5 acre generational homestead called Dragonfly Demesne, I can't help but feel a sense of disappointment and loss. But even as my plans have changed, my dreams remain the same; they are just taking on a smaller form. As I hope for the best for my chicken's health, the reality is that things may not turn out as I wish. But through it all, I am learning to embrace change and remain positive in the face of uncertainty. Sometimes, it's OK to feel sad. Allow yourself to be true to your feelings ✨️

03/09/2024

I just want to cuddle Rio forever ! He is such a snuggly boy 💙🐈💙

02/09/2024

✨️I haven't been on all weekend, I've been packing up the contents of our home.

🏠 We have sadly made the decision to sell the 5 acre homestead and downsize to a "normal" house in suburbia !
I'm hoping to find the perfect home near the kids school and still do all my composting, sustainable living practices and get a little green house to grow our own veggies.

🐔 I'm really hoping the yard will be big enough to take my chickens with me, the roosters will be rehomed as will the sheep and alpacas.

💜 It's going to be a big few months and I'm hopeful the move will be all done and dusted by Christmas 🎄

31/08/2024

Some people just have this natural presence that draws others in, driven by their confidence, style, and fearless attitude, while their genuine caring nature and life experiences make them truly magnetic
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~Light in the Room~

We all know that person. You know the one's...

The one's who walk into a room.
That seemed so dark and full of gloom.
When suddenly...
They arrive and..."BOOM!"

By the energy they radiate—
and by their magnetism...
we are consumed.
Drawn to them, like moths to a flame.

Maybe it's the way they carry themselves'?
Maybe it's in their glowing smile?
Or that knowing twinkle in their eye...
or their effortless natural style?

Maybe it's in the eloquence of their words?
Or the melodic quality of their voice?
Maybe it's how when they speak
you feel recharged in their presence—
with their interest and infectious joy?

Maybe it's in their posture and the way they talk
with a certain quiet confidence and grace?
Maybe it's how fearless they are no matter
the struggles they may face?

Always getting back up no matter
how many times they fall.
To them, there is no such thing as failure,
just lessons learnt, that's all...

Or maybe it's in the way they listen
and the way they genuinely care?
Or maybe it's in the life they've lived
and all the exciting adventure—
stories that they passionately share?

Maybe actually, it's all of the above and more?
But one thing I know for sure...
and have noticed to be true.

To light up the room. It isn't all about
your appearance, what you've done,
and what you do.

Maybe, it's really about finding
your unique inner light...

and about being true to YOU.

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Poem: (c) Demelza Dhotel.2024.
Artwork: Unknown. (Pinterest)

This poem is about those people you know that brighten up the room when they walk in. The people that recharge your light rather than sap your energy. The people with a warm aura surrounding their very being as well as those people with a natural charisma about them. It's about understanding why we want to be around these types of people and how we ourselves might better harness our own unique inner light by being true to ourselves.

28/08/2024

Time is passing by
Unnoticed
Minutes become hours
Unfocused
Staring into nothingness
Hypnosis
Until reality has slipped away
Psychosis

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28/08/2024

28/08/2024

Living with Borderline Personality Disorder has always been a rollercoaster ride for me. Some days, the severity of my symptoms feels like a distant memory and I begin to wonder if perhaps I have overcome this disorder. But then, there are moments when I am reminded that I am not cured. It's during these moments that I realise that although I may not be completely free from BPD, I am stable and in more control of my thoughts and emotions than I was before. It's almost like a shadow that follows me, always present but not as overpowering as it once was. Despite the progress I have made, there are still triggers and challenges that can bring back the intense emotions and impulsive behaviors associated with BPD. However, now I have the tools and coping mechanisms to navigate through these difficult moments. It's a constant reminder that recovery from BPD is a journey, not a destination. And while it may feel like so many years have passed since the worst of my symptoms, I am grateful for how far I have come and the progress I continue to make every day 💜

28/08/2024

Why am I, as an adult, expected to regularly go through and check my emails ? My kids school send an email, they tend to text to let parents know there's been an email sent or text there's important information on the school portal.
Work emails me my roster weekly, so I know that's coming, I check that.
But if anyone else or other business or news or whatever sends me an email, the chances of me opening it are probably around 50-50 !

Do people regularly check their emails just in case something important props up ? Or only check it when they know they're getting something?

26/08/2024

🎉 Facebook recognised me as a top rising creator this week!

26/08/2024

Sometimes, I can't help but feel like I'm living a life that runs parallel to my own. On one hand, there are my dreams, my ideals, and how I want things to be. These are the things that drive me and give me a sense of purpose. On the other hand, there's the reality of my everyday life, the one that I'm actually living. It's not always aligned with my dreams and ideals, and it can be easy to feel like I'm living two separate lives. However, I believe that the key to making these two lives entwine is through finding balance. It's about recognizing that while our ideal life may not always be attainable, our current reality is still valuable and can bring us happiness. It's about being open to new experiences and being willing to adapt our dreams and ideals to fit our current circumstances. It's also important to take small steps towards aligning our two lives, whether it's setting achievable goals or making small changes in our daily routine. Ultimately, it's about finding contentment in both our dreams and our reality, and understanding that they can coexist to create a fulfilling and meaningful life.

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25/08/2024

With Christian Hull – I just got recognised as one of their top fans! 🎉

25/08/2024

Living with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) can bring about a myriad of challenges, especially when it comes to interpersonal relationships 💔
One of the struggles of BPD is the tendency to split, where people with this disorder may experience extreme shifts in their perceptions and feelings towards others. This can lead to loving someone intensely and placing them on a pedestal, only to have those feelings change in an instant at the smallest irritation, causing them to devalue and push that person away 🫷
The constant confusion over how love should feel and the fear of being abandoned can make it difficult to maintain healthy and stable relationships.
However, with self-awareness and understanding, those with BPD can learn to recognize these patterns and communicate with their partners to navigate through the ups and downs 🙃
Having a supportive and understanding partner can also be a blessing in managing these challenges. With time and effort, individuals with BPD can learn to overcome these struggles and build strong and lasting relationships ❤️

25/08/2024

The work me, outside me and home me are completely different people. We don't even look the same !

24/08/2024

It's almost "that time"

24/08/2024

I'm at the age where if you text me at 10pm...
I'm texting you back at 6am

24/08/2024

Sorry bout dat. 🤣🤣

24/08/2024

Remembering something you have to do before you sit down, as you're in the motion of sitting down. So you're now thinking about standing back up as you're sitting down, and you kind of bounce of the chair like a ball 🤔

23/08/2024

Life's Cookie Crumbs: Unfairness and Unjustness

Life is full of ups and downs, twists and turns, and unexpected challenges. It's like a cookie that we bite into, expecting it to be sweet and delicious, only to find some crumbs that leave a sour taste in our mouths. We all experience these crumbs in different forms and at different times in our lives. Some may seem small and insignificant, while others may shake us to our core. But what is even more perplexing is when these crumbs seem to fall on the wrong plate. When good people are dealt with unfairness and unjustness, it leaves us wondering why bad things happen to those who do not deserve it.

Lately, I have been witnessing my friends go through some difficult times that seem completely unjust and unfair. One friend is dealing with a messy divorce and custody battle with her ex-husband, who is trying to use the legal system against her by making false accusations. This has caused her to attend countless court dates, deal with police involvement, and be labeled as a bad parent. It's heartbreaking to see someone who is genuinely a good person being put through such turmoil because of someone else's lies and manipulation.

As I watch her go through this, I can't help but think about my own past mistakes. I have not always been the best person - I've broken laws, gotten into fights, struggled with alcoholism and drug addiction. Yet, I never had to deal with any legal issues or have the police involved in my life. It seems unfair that someone who has made positive changes and is trying to be a better person is facing such difficulties while someone like me has seemingly gotten away with it all.

Another friend of mine was recently diagnosed with cancer. She has always been health-conscious - eating well, exercising regularly, not smoking, and limiting her alcohol intake. On the other hand, I have spent years poisoning my body with drugs, alcohol, and unhealthy habits. And yet, it's not me receiving this diagnosis. It's hard not to question the unfairness of it all - why does someone who takes care of themselves have to suffer while someone like me, who has neglected their health, continues to live without any major health issues?

These situations leave me feeling frustrated and confused. I want to help my friends as best as I can, but I can't help but wonder why these bad things are happening to them when they are such good people. It seems like life is playing a cruel joke on them, and they are the ones getting the short end of the stick.

But as I reflect on these situations, I realize that life's cookie crumbs are not meant to be fair or just. They are simply a part of our journey and our growth as individuals. We may not understand why some people have to go through certain challenges while others seem to have it easy, but that's just the way life works.

Perhaps these difficult experiences are meant to teach us important lessons and shape us into stronger and more resilient individuals. They push us out of our comfort zones and force us to confront our deepest fears and vulnerabilities. They also allow us to appreciate the good times and cherish the moments that truly matter.

Moreover, these experiences remind us that life is unpredictable and unfairness can happen to anyone at any time. It's easy to fall into the trap of thinking that bad things only happen to bad people or vice versa. But the truth is, we are all susceptible to life's cookie crumbs, no matter how good or bad we may be.

So instead of questioning why bad things happen to good people, perhaps we should focus on how we can support and help those going through a tough time. We can offer a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on, or simply be there for them when they need it most. We can also use our own experiences and lessons learned to provide guidance and advice.

In the end, life's cookie crumbs may seem unfair and unjust, but they are a natural part of our human experience. We all have our own unique paths to walk, and it's up to us to make the best of it, even when faced with challenges and obstacles. So let's be kind, understanding, and compassionate towards each other as we navigate through life's ups and downs together.

22/08/2024

One Foot Forward 2024 - Stepping Towards a Healthier Future

As we enter the year 2024, we are faced with immense challenges, both individually and globally. The world is constantly changing and evolving, and it is up to us to adapt and move forward. One of the most pressing issues that we face as a society is the state of our mental health. With the increase in stress, anxiety, and other mental health issues, it is more important than ever to prioritise our well-being. That is where initiatives like the One Foot Forward challenge come in.

Last year, I participated in this challenge for the first time. I had just started my journey of raising awareness for mental health and mental illness through my social media platform. The One Foot Forward challenge seemed like the perfect opportunity for me to not only raise awareness but also make a positive change in my own life.

For those who are not familiar with the One Foot Forward challenge, it is a month-long event where participants pledge to walk, run or hike a certain number of kilometers (or miles) every day. The goal is to promote physical activity and raise funds for mental health organizations. It is a win-win situation – you get to improve your physical health while also making a difference in the lives of those struggling with mental illness.

Last year, I set a modest goal for myself – 60 kilometers for the entire month. As someone who did not exercise regularly, it seemed like a challenging but achievable goal. And let me tell you, it was not easy at first. I struggled with finding the motivation to get up and go for a walk every day. But as I continued on my journey, something changed within me. I hit that 60km goal within the first 2 weeks, so I upped it to 100kms which I proudly achieved !

I began to see the positive effects that walking had on my mental well-being. It gave me time to clear my mind, reflect on my thoughts and emotions, and appreciate the beauty of nature around me. With each step, I felt like I was leaving behind my worries and stress, and moving towards a happier and healthier version of myself. And that was just the beginning.

As I continued to walk, run, and hike, I started to notice improvements in my physical health as well. I had more energy, slept better at night, and even lost a few kilos. It was incredible to see how just a small change in my daily routine had such a big impact on my overall well-being.

But the most rewarding part of the challenge was the impact it had on others. Through my social media platform, I shared my journey with my followers and encouraged them to join me in the One Foot Forward challenge. I joined the One Foot Forward fb page and joined them in this challenge and they shared their experiences with me. It was heartwarming to see so many people coming together for a common cause – to promote mental health awareness and make a positive change in their own lives.

This year, as I gear up to participate in the One Foot Forward challenge once again, I have set a higher goal for myself – 150 kilometers. This may seem daunting to some, but after experiencing the benefits of the challenge last year, I am determined to push myself further and make an even bigger impact.

I have also decided to use this opportunity to raise funds for mental health organisations. Along with my personal goal of 150 kilometers, I have set a fundraising goal of $385. Every dollar raised will go towards providing support and resources for those struggling with mental illness.

The One Foot Forward challenge is not just about walking or running a certain number of kilometers; it is about taking a step towards a healthier future – both for ourselves and for those around us. It is about breaking the stigma surrounding mental health and encouraging open conversations about it. It is about prioritising our well-being and making positive changes in our lives.

As we move forward into 2024, let us all take one foot forward towards a healthier future. Let us come together and make a difference in the lives of those struggling with mental illness. And most importantly, let us continue to spread awareness and break the stigma surrounding mental health. Remember, every step counts, and together we can make a positive impact.

So, are you ready to take the One Foot Forward challenge with me this year? Let's lace up our shoes, hit the pavement, and make a difference. One step at a time.

Together, we can help create better mental health for all.

22/08/2024

Do the thing🖤

22/08/2024

This 👇👇👇👇👇👇
We suffer in silence, it's time to speak up and share and support one another 🙏

I understand the importance of healing out loud because I nearly died in silence. For a long time, I kept my struggles to myself, not realizing how much I needed to share. Finding my voice and speaking up became a big part of my healing. It wasn’t just about surviving; it was about finding strength in being open.

22/08/2024

In celebration of Book Week, I have chosen to dress as a fairy princess for the dress-up day at work, an event that allows us to express our imagination ✨️👸✨️

20/08/2024

💤Time to let go of the day💤

It's always a strange feeling inside to let go of the day and prepare for sleep, knowing that I will soon have to wake up and start a new day all over again.
There's always a tug of war between the urge to stay awake and not miss out on anything and the realisation that getting enough sleep is necessary for my mental and physical well-being.
As I lay in bed, thoughts of what I could be doing or experiencing if I stayed up a little longer flood my mind. However, I also know that without proper rest, tomorrow morning will be a struggle, making it difficult for me to be mentally and physically capable.
It's a delicate balance between wanting to live in the present moment and recognising the importance of self-care for a productive and fulfilling tomorrow.

So, as I close my eyes and drift off into slumber, I make peace with the fact that letting go of today's adventures means making room for tomorrow's possibilities.

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19/08/2024

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