27/03/2021
~ 𝚛𝚎𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏~ It's been 5 months since I last posted here clearly not ideal for someone who is running a creative content business So why has it taken me so long? Well...
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Life happened.
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I'd launched this little creative enterprise shortly after the birth of my first baby, whilst the pre-mama driven, entrepreneurial, workaholic was still raging inside me. It wasn't long before the reality of becoming a mama & my journey through matresence clashed heavily with that independent professional version of myself. I was so used to being able to throw myself at a new project, but now I was in demand 24/7 by this tiny little being. I felt so torn between the two parts of my life - work and motherhood. My family suffered and I suffered as I became more stressed, cranky, frustrated and irritable.
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I pushed on determined to make this work. I'd seen countless 'examples' of women who seemed able to juggle it all, who in fact thrived off having something outside of motherhood. I was afraid if I didn't have that too then I wasn't "woman" enough. I'd been fed this ideal of a modern mother, not realising how toxic it could be.
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In the end, for me, it wasn't sustainable.
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So I stripped my business back to basics, choosing to focus solely on my core clients. Growth was no longer important. Delivering quality to those I was already committed to was my only priority. And that included my family.
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We've recently moved and I can feel the creativity and passion for work growing again in this new community. However, this time I feel more centred & am not driven by ego or false ideals. Things are coming from my true self and I'm curious to see how that will unfold.
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So for those who've read this far...thanks for coming along for the ride! Hope you stick around as I explore what it really means to run an
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