14/09/2021
As I sat down to create this little embroidery, just before starting, before knowing what it was going to be like, what colours, what textures and shapes... I heard a voice inside my head; “Why are you doing this? It’s not going to be any good, wasting time and for what? Just go and be productive”. A moment of hesitation, where I almost believed it and stood up to “be productive”. Then... I remembered. I know this voice, it is the same voice that I hear sometimes before meditating, a hidden force that prevents me from doing what makes me feel nourished and alive. It can come in different forms: self doubt, inner critic, procrastination... but it always comes from the same origin: fear.
Creativity is scary. It requires us to bare our souls and to enter the unknown. This voice is just our ego trying to stay safe, and the only way to overcome it is to confront it.
A deep breath, I feel my hands, I feel the fabric, noticing the texture and colours of the threads pulling me back to this moment. The voice quietens as I step out of my thoughts, into my body. I find my creative flow, and the joy and happiness that I feel as I create and play are enough to let this resistance go.
Sometimes this voices can keep us from doing what we love for years, but as we become aware of our fears around creativity and what stops us from being in our creative flow, we can begin to let them go. All that is needed is awareness, compassion and patience.
Just a few spots left for this Saturday’s workshop: Yoga & Creative Stitches 🌈✨